Pr|nc3ss m0nk3y's diAry

2006-05-26T23:38:00.000-07:00

UNDER CONSTRUCTION

1 down..2 to go..

2005-12-01T03:00:00.000-08:00

heya..

just finished painting one banner..2 more to go..

we only took 5 hrs to paint it..very fast actually..

tml's banner will be tougher to paint..but toughest has yet to come..

thanks gers and guys who actually came back to paint the banner..

thanks sook..hee..still have su meeting later on..

kinda tired..so many stuff to complete..but it's okie..i can make it..hee..

went home yesterday..took lotsa stuff back..hee..

i brought one big bag of nougats back to hall..and my 2nd kor bought me a very nice gift from australia..thanks kor kor..
=)

thanks auntie evil as well..noe that i'm not feeling well..called to make sure i ate the medicine and stuff..and oso..helped me alter my skirts.and she made a comment tat shocked me..was saying if i see that crazy girl in pa..just ignore her..i was like..crazy girl?..
*grinz*

hmm..sweetie dar dar came over to my hall to have dinner with me..and off he gone to pa again..

going over with him one sunday to help out as well..hee..better this way..dun have to wake up so early on monday for the hobtc..hee..

just finished watching the eye 10 with my neighbour..guess i'm too tired..kept dozing off..
-yawnz-

another long day tml..gonna wake up early to have breakfast with dar dar..and start painting another painter..jia you jia you..hee..

alright..shall have an early nite..gdnite everyone..
=)

movie marathon

2005-11-29T08:32:00.000-08:00

heya..

hee..decided to blog before i go and slp..

had movie marathontoday..watched 4 and half movies..hee..

caught one and a half movies with hui ming..my neighbour..hee..

and the irritating guys tried to scare us..faint..

nth much to update today..was in hall the whole day..den mr evil came over to fetch me to buy paints..

thanks mr evil..still had to go back to pa to help up for the nite..

going home for dinner tml..mum was asking for one or for two..duh..hee..

gonna catch chicken little with mr evil tml..gdgd..hee..

gonna polish my boots and alter my uniform later..back to np life..hee..

i'm back

2005-11-29T01:22:00.000-08:00

heya..

i'm back~

haa..well well..havent been blogging for more than a month..

ali..i'm not lost..see..i'm back again..hee..

had been mugging for my examz..hence..i din have time to blog..

many events were up during the past one mth plus..celebrated 3rd mth at jack's place..had a fantastic dinner..celebrated dar dar's bdae..hope he had a great surprise..hee..

love my mugging kakis so so much..

we had been mugging practically everyday..going to the same tut rms..having lunch and dinner together..having discussions together..

gers..remember the times when we had chemistry and maths discussions?..threw all the stuff back to tong and wong liao..haa..

to my lovely dar dar..thanks for being there for me..i still remember the time when i had nervous breakdown..and u were there for me..to comfort me and to make sure i had my rest..

and times when we started cooking our meals together..taking some breather after a long day of mugging..

love ya so much..love my girl friends just as much..
=)

after exams..went shopping with sook..so enjoyable..haven been shopping for so long..bought lotsa stuff but i spent very little..less than 200 bucks..hee..

right after shopping..returned to hall to do spring cleaning..spent 5 hrs with mr evil to clean my room..thank you dar dar..

dar dar finally went to my house for dinner...well..shldnt say finally..cos i haven been going home for like 3 mths?..opps..
=p

so glad he can blend in with my family..had a long chat with my kor kor..can sense that my finally like the boy boy that i bring home..hee..even allow me to go overseas with him..
=bliss=

yup..just came back from sibu..had a fun time fishing and playing majong..

had a extremely gd slp as well..mr evil bluff me that it was raining and there was no sun rise when it wasnt raining at all..haa..however..it was too cloudy that the sun rise wasnt clear as well..so i did the rigth thing of going back to slp..
>.<

back to singapore..my schedule is rather packed..

but rather pissed with something..shant say much..luckily dar dar and my girl friends are here to help..or i wonder how i'm going to complete the task..

went to hq to collect my uniforms..havent been there ever since the officer shooting com..

training gonna start next week..ihg starting next wk as well..

which oso means i gonna get the ihg banner up by this week..

gonna buy the paints and cloth tml..

just finished the jcrc meeting..one more to come on monday after my training..

going back to cedar to help out with the campcraft team..u go girls..

going home on wed for dinner again..2nd bro's back from australia..shalll see what he had bought this time..hee..

hmm..uncle tim's bdae this sat..aunt amy's asking mr evil and i down..but kinda bz..dar dar has another celebration at nite..hmm..shall see how then..

yuppoe..tat's all for now..too many things to update already..hee..

one presentation done

2005-10-09T09:56:00.000-07:00

heya..

here comes my weekly updating..hee..

one presentation done for this week..hee..gdgd..but it means tat i've got an essay to complete and another presentation is coming too..

faint..

bad ger for this week..

kept having cravings for for different things..

tue..felt like eating bk..and sweetie evil got to forgo his dinner at home and acc me to westmall to have bk..hee..

and another day..felt like drinking soya milk when i has studying in the library..and hui ting actually went to buy two bottles for me..

*smilez*

on wed..went to sign up for the malaysia trip to kelong @ Sibu organised by ntu angler's club..

hmm..poor evil..after hearing tat i wont start fishing till i get a P*I*N*K rod and a P*I*N*K reel..he kept asking ard and surfing the net to look for it..

it's really a tough task man..

was thinking to have a custom made one..but as we were scouting ard the area of bugis fishing stores..found one with cheery red rod..shld i be satisfied with it?..maybe i should..

*grinz*

yesterday was his grandma's bdae..

we had a six-course dinner at his uncle's hse..

he actually hired the mobile restautant to the hse..with eleven tables of ten pax..

the dinner was sumptuous..everyone was looking forward for the 'buddha jump over the wall'..but i prefer the bird nest..hee..evil and i estimated tat the whole dinner cost ard 10k..

the whole event was enjoying..but a pity that nana din come..the bubbly little ger..

huimin (evil's cousin) was very nice..msged evil to ask me if i need help in any assignments..and that i can go and approach her..thanks thanks..

another of his cousin actually has a company of his own whereby they provide the package of mass sending..great..jcrc has been looking for it..after m1 and singtel din really respond to us..shall get more info 1st..

hmm..hopefully next sat's event is cfmed..cant wait to pick up my tennis racket..

and of cos..not forgetting 141005..

*muAckZz*

shopping spree~

2005-10-02T10:28:00.000-07:00

heya..

it's a pleasant sunday morning..

dot dot dot..hee..

just woke up..shall do my blogging 1st before starting my packed schedule for the day..

let me see..

last sunday..had jcrc meeting..once again..it lasted for 6 hrs..ended at ard 2am..but was a fun one..a lot of agendas being brought up..gdgd..

monday..as usual..lesson ends at 7.30pm..had to rushed back to hall for investiture..had to change to my formal outfit..havent been wearing like tat even since i stopped teaching in nbss..

went to aunt amy's hse to get my lappie at night..my lappie has more or less recovered..thanks to all who had helped me with my lappie..esp jun jie..hee..no tax k..

wed was a mugging day for me..had to start revising for exams..

stressed~

thur was the day i was looking forward since the beginning of the week..i could finally meet up with mr evil..hee..

so sweet of him to walk all the way to the very far end of nie to meet me..had homestay for tat day..

aunt evil is so sweet..bought me a bed..so thoughtful of her..the next morning when i woke up..i saw our bottles washed and filled with water and our breakfast wrapped up nicely for us to bring to sch..

it's a kind of warmth tat i've not felt it since..

as on fri..had to rushed back to hall after lect to get the jcrc stuff done..

was rather pissed when i get back to hall..not gonna mentioned much here..but all i wanna say is..i gonna get a single room next year..

met up with our hall fellows..the profs are very amiable..

then we had our own main comm meeting..the designs for the shitrts are more or less finalised..phew!

after that..we had our movie marathon..once again..i fell aslp even the movie started..haa..charles..thanks for your shoulder..and jun jie..your comforter is forever so comfortable..

left the function early in the morning to head down to nangyang lake..

well well..tried to learn how to fish..erm..not too bad..but it would be more fulfilling if there was somebody in the water to hook a fish onto my bait..haahaa..

after that..went over to sim lim to buy a new cpu..the 6 yr-old cpu has finally died..hee..

while waiting for the cpu to be set up..our shopping spree started..hee..

got myself a pair of shorts at seiyu..was damn crowded..the quene for the changing rm was so long..

then..went over to arab street..wanting to get the seashell necklace..but nothing fancy me..ended up..bought a PINK rattan bag..nice nice..hee..

evil din get his lure ultimately..shall get everything at one shot after exams yah..got get a left-handed rod for myself as well..hee..

gotten the cpu..headed down to jp..cos evil din manage to buy this columbia trekking shoes at bugis..limited sizes..

at wos..tried more than 5 pairs of shoes i think..and in the end..he got himself a pair of adidas track shoes..and well well..not forgetting to pamper myself..got a pair of nike track shoes and nike socks..haahaa..

but..i wasnt the big spendor of the day..it was mr evil k..he spent 10 times more than me..hee..

with more than 4 big bags to carry..we decided to take a cab home..hee..thanks to the 2 sets of 8 sockets plugs for jcrc..so heavy man..hee..

and now..the com is finally back..with a faster speed..and i have to rush my representation by tonight..

hmm..had a great chat with mr evil last night..was a meaningful one..like the feeling of it..aunt evil oso mentioned to me abt staying here for the last two years..she plans to stay in jurong till i graduate before shifting back to hougang..hopefully if everything goes smoothly..evil and i are financially stable and we can purchase an apartment..well..shall see how yah..

anyway..thanks evil for the drawing..wanted to draw by myself..but u've made a faster move..hee..

ma'am lk..noe u're reading this..close ur eyes lah..haa..eh..u wan info abt ur sis not..hee..even if u want..i oso dun tell u..

bleah..haa..

k..shall stop here for now..thanks kolay..finally gotten the song tat i want..hee..

to my one and only mr evil..

2005-09-25T01:18:00.000-07:00

to my one and only mr evil..

- love is not blind..but thou shall choose not to see -

familar phrase..you shld noe wat it means..

i really had a great time with u just now..it has been so long since we really put our books aside and just enjoy the time we have together..

i agree with you that absence really makes my heart grows fonder..when i met you on wed..i felt that i really missed you a lot..

and i wanna apologies as well..i have been venting anger on you for no rythme or reason..just couldnt control my temper yah..but u were so patient with me..always there to comfort me..

the conversation we had while traveling back was some sort a fulfilling one..

so many things that we have in common..the food that we like and dislike..the mindset of settling down..the posts we have in sch and in hall..and many many more..

the word marriage has often been appearing in my mind..many times a yes is what i would really like to say to you..

but time plays a crucial factor here yah..

both of us know what shld be our top priority..

but i wouldnt mind something on my finger in a few years time..
=p

i really treasure and appreciate the time we have together..

though there are times when we would have some agruements but i feel that it is just one way of how we can get to know each other better..

well..there is a never ending 'what to do' list that we have..shall we just fulfill one at a time in a pace of our own?

you are my best companion who do not mind my shortcomings..
you may not understand me completely but you always try your very best..

- lost in your eyes -

hall 13 production

2005-09-25T00:32:00.000-07:00

heya..

hmm..mr evil said i havent been blogging..so here i am again..

have been rather bz with jcrc stuff and sch work..besides..having some prob with my lappie..so i can only blog when i have my homestay..hee..

the beginning of the week..i was bz with MAF..

still remembered someone knocking on my door and another calling me on my phone while i was trying to get half an hour of nap..dot dot dot..

one was to ask me to go for dinner..the other one was abt MAF stuff..

had lotsa fun on tue..my piggy piggback me ard the amphitheatre..haa..so funny..and the main comm had "moonwalk" ard nie after the whole event had ended..needless to say..only had afew hours of slp before the lecture the next morning..hee..

wed was terrible..wasnt feeling well..my sweet maths prof excused me from his tut wothout even asking for my reason..thanks thanks..

and mr evil came to my rescue..skipped his lect and came to nie to send me back to hall..if not for him..i might have just fainted in sch..hee..

as for thur..had ma la steamboat..yum yum..but mr evil din allow me to eat too spicy..it's for my own good..was having a weak stomach then..

as usual..watched ju-on in the tv lounge on fri with jj..ah vet and ben..wasnt scary at all..haa..jj's aim wasnt fulfilled..lalala..

as for today..it was the hall 13 production..it's a comedy romance play..some scenes really touched me..

given the tight schedule..they were able to produce such a fantastic 2-hr play..thumbs up to them..

before going to the play..had a great time shopping with mr evil..we finally took our 1st neoprints..had a lot of fun decorating them..haahaa..

then went to arab street to look at his fishing stuff..and he's fixing them beside me now..=p

bought a pair of magnetic weighs..gonna make them to key chains..hee..mr evil shall have the honour to do it..haa..

and we bought two sets of similar adidas outfit..have been wanting to buy since one mth ago..on cloud nine now..hee..

well..to mr evil..the next blog is specially dedicated to you..

piglet shirt~

2005-09-17T07:22:00.000-07:00

heya..

it's 07oo hours and i'm up..

well..slept for less than 2 hours only..

was watching a korean horror show on tv last night with my hall peeps..

had a lot of fun..lame jun jie actually took a video cam to record our facial expressions..
faint..

then..we played bridge all the way till 4am..well..luck was on my side..hee..

ah vet's friend came over to watch the show with us too..he's sleeping on ah vet's bed now while ah vet's on my bed..maybe tat's the reason why i din sleep well..not used to another extra person..hee..

hmm..for the past one week..many things had happened..as usual..

attended sean's cousin's wedding..saw many ppl..

can remember all though..hee..

had a lot of fun with cutie nadiah during the dinner..so adorable..hope to see her again during the b'dae celebration..

the very next day which was a monday..had jcrc meeting..

it was at changi..at the NSAF chalet..meeting started at 0000hrs and ended at 0532hrs..omg~

but i had a lot of fun there..

den jason drove us back..kept pestering him to send me back to "7-11" no matter wat..hee..

later..took a bath and rushed down to meet joy,,kolay and sook to sentosa..it was then 0730hrs..

had tanning at siloso den had lunch with more gerls and mr evil at cafe cartel..

missed yan so much..finally got to meet up with her..

on wed..treated mr evil and his family for dinner..brought them to his mum's favourite resturant..well..prefer crystal jade though..hee..

something happened..but..shall let it rest yah..

there're some things that had touched me..

thanks for that night when u actually cycled over to my hall to accompany me..though i thought i was dreaming when i first saw you..hee..

and..thanks for the surprise that u've given me last night..i'm wearing the piglet shirt now..hee..
love you so much..
*muAck*

hmm..gonna meet ma'am lk later to tracom..havent been going down to tracom for so long~..even since the campcraft com..shall go once more before it shifts to the west..

din go for the H.O.T dinner last night..no reason..just dun feel like going..

more events coming up..awaiting for my steamboat and supper..joy..must make it hor..i wanna be your 2nd passenger cos i noe the 1st passenger is reserved for somebody else..hee..

k..shall stop here for now..shant be late..tata..

jcrc sub comm dinner..

2005-09-10T13:42:00.000-07:00

heya..

*yawnz*

hee..dun even know how many hours of slp i had..

my tank looks so empty now..all our hamies are with mr evil..

hmm..yesterday was the sub comm dinner..fun fun fun..hee..

had a very filling dinner..

returned to hall and the main comm had our movie marathon..

introduced my chou chou to them..they were stunned when they 1st saw it..haa..anticipated that..

they love cup cup the most..they took it and play with it..hee..

watched a lot of movies..i supposed..but i din manage to watch a complete show cos i fell asleep..hee..

when i woke up..realised jj has lent me his comforter..poor guy..was so cold in the function room..thanks thanks..

it was 6.30am when i woke up..i wondered how many shows they had watched..hee..but was really enjoying..

also..wanna thank my fantastic sub comm..u guys have done great job..the banners are great..so proud of u guys..

hmm..waiting for hui ting to come..she gonna stay in my hall tonight..it's a GIRLs' nite..haa..

gonna have my lunch at jp..get my manicure done..shall go for a jog at nite..

cant wait for tml to come..going to do my hair..before going for the wedding..hee..

*impatient*

just hope everything will turn out well..and memorable for all..

mr evil..ms angel..baby angel..but where's my baby evil?

2005-09-08T12:32:00.000-07:00

mr evil..ms angel..baby angel..but where's my baby evil?

heya..

hmm..it's thursday but i just feel like blogging..waiting for kolay and jean to have lunch at can 13 together..havent seen jean for so long~~

i have been slacking..not doing much of my tuts for the past few days..rather..have been bz with jcrc stuff..

so glad that i have a grp of capable and responsible sub comm members..the banners will be done by tonight and we are so proud of it..

and guess wat..i have 3 roboski in my room now..they are called mr evil..ms angel and baby angel tentatively cos it too small tat we cant figure its gender..hee..

they are sound asleep now..they're just so adorable..love them so much..

and they enjoy eating just like me..hee..i can just stare at them for hours and not get bored..hee..

more events coming up as the day passes..

having agm tonight..but i cant wait to finish painting the banners..hopefully i can leave early..wanna finish painting with my sub comm..hee..

awaiting for my homestay once again..it has always been so enjoyable..thanks mr evil..

here're the info for 03s13..

date: 13 sept 2005

tanning @ sentosa..

venue: JE mrt or harbourfront bus interchange

time: 0830 and 0900 hours respectively

lunch @ cafe cartel

venue: doby ghaut

time: 1200 hours

for more enquires..pls call me lah..haa~

home stay in blk 711..

2005-09-04T01:06:00.000-07:00

home stay..

3 days 2 nights..

heya..

here comes my weekly update..hee..

suppose to be doing my tut now but tot of blogging since i'm checking my mails..

mr evil's studying in the living room so i shall slack for awhile..shHh~~
=p

during the weekdays..was kinda a mad rush for me..two quizes..gonna fail very badly for the first one but i'm confident that i'll pass the second one..

was rather stressed up cos there was jcrc meeting at night..which happened so that i had quiz the next morning..but well..i'm still alive and kicking..hee..

jcrc meetings were fine..had interviews for the recruitment of my sub-comm..response was not too bad..this week is gonna be mad rush again..painting of banner..hope my member has gotten the design out..
*pray hard*

went to pin guan's campus concert on thurs..joy came too..havent seen her for a week?..ger..take care yah..your mr seow will be back in no time..in the mean time..come look for me..my room is always opened for you..but well..even though if it's closed..you have the key lor..haa..remember our date k?
=)

well..some flashback when i was in the concert..the sudden tot of the song..tong hua..whom someone used to promise me that it would sang to me..hmm..it's over yah..everything's just so realistic i suppose..

mr evil and i are trying to change our life style..

-space-

well..managing quite well now..hee..
so sweet of mr evil to buy dinner for me the other day..
so surprised to see you walking in to my room in the middle of nowhere..hee..
but u saw the 'maria' side of me..
-faint-

well..have been staying in mr evil's hell for two nights already..haa..

but it's more like heaven than hell man..i'm really enjoying myself here..went to the market with his mum..got the ingredients that we needed..i actually cooked pasta for them and mr evil finally baked the dory fish for me..really very delicious..can i be greedy to ask for more?

hmm..pulled my leg muscle just now..sweet auntie actually helped to rub my leg..feel so much better..thanks thanks..

i shall be disciplined and finish my revision by tml afternoon before rion comes home..and three of us gonna have a crazy dinner together..haahaa..gonna be fun man..we gonna sin once again..
*grinz*

was thinking about wat will my life be like two years down the road..
shall just take everything in my stride yah..

note to 03s13..
confirmation of tanning @ sentosa
date: 13 sept 2005
meeting place: u noe where lah..
time: 0830 hours

after tanning..
dinner..shld be in town..yan yan is finally free..so try to make it yah..
sms me if unsure of anything yah..

sook..going back to pj during the break rite..when huh?

alright..i shall get back to my revision..anyway..thanks joy for the pics..hee..

*ms angel's finger feels so empty* --> 2 to 5 years later.. ^innocent look^

hall 7 production

2005-08-28T01:58:00.000-07:00

heya..

it's 0146 hours now..cant sleep cos my dearie mr evil has yet to reach home..

poor mr evil has to walk home all the way from my hall..

meet him in the afternoon..and i was smiling from one end to the other..he looked so smart..hee..this is my 1st time seeing him in smart casual..looked so handsome..hee..couldnt stand it man..

had dinner at newton circle..happy happy..hee..i'm getting crazy again..

den headed down for the hall se7en production..met up with lotsa his friends..the play was interesting..there were parts whereby it touched my heart..and there were also times when the actors were so comical..

and thanks to joy..if not..i wouldnt be able to take so many pics..shall try to upload the pics up asap..

but..my laptop just got reformatted..sigh..lotsa stuff to dl again..luckily..my dearie is here to help me..hee..thanks thanks..

okie dokie..shall go and slp now..mr evil's back..safe and sound..

dearie..thanks for the wonderful day..

*muackzZ*

- i'm feeling cold..but at least i know i'm still alive.. - the road runners

hectic..

2005-08-27T02:46:00.000-07:00

heya..

it's 0226 hours now..and i just came back from the jcrc meeting..it lasted for 4 hrs..phew!

shall take a rest before going back to do my work..

well..for the past few days..i was rather emotionally unstable..

but i'm so fortunate to have a group of great pals around me..giving me support and encouragement..u guys were there to accompany me..making sure that i was alright..

u guys really rock~

went over to mr evil's hse to stayover on wed nite..cos ah vet's fren wanna come over to the hall..the stay was really enjoyable..felt the warmth in the family..so cosy..and wat really touches me was in the morning..his mum made breakfast and brewed herbal tea for me..for the whole of today..i was drinking herbal tea..it has been more than a month since i've such a proper and filling breakfast..thank you auntie..=)

met up with su for dinner..needed to meet her after wat had happened..she's always here for me..thanks ger..

came back for meeting..well well..lotsa stuff to accomplish..gonna really manage my time very very well..i need help in designing now..hee..

hmm..gonna be another memorable day tml..actually..everyday is so memorable to me..finally get to dress up abit..wanna look gothic but..mr evil doesnt seem to like it..hee..well..at least my nails are not black..they're in bloody red only..haahaa..

my dearie mr evil..thanks for everything..you rock my world..without u..i would be a lost soul..just wanna say again..i dun need anything EXTRA..especially on material comfort..all i need is YOU..

"Life is like 2 adjacent openings sharing 1 door..you open one..you close the other..you cant have the best of both worlds.."

2005-08-24T02:56:00.000-07:00

family?

-tears-

so many places available..but not my house..

*thinking*

do i have a house in the first place?

so comical..

2005-08-22T01:06:00.000-07:00

heya..

just got back to hall ard half an hour ago..

really enjoyed myself today..

mr evil was cleaning his fish tanks by the time i got there..

helped him with some household chores..but doubt i managed to help in any ways..imagine i swept the floor for 5 times?
*faint*

finally got to watch zhen qing again..havent been watching for so long..hee..

then..3 of us had dinner together..as in rion..mr evil and i..and we sinned..we ate one whole tub of rocky road ice cream..but was really cool~

later..we had revision together..i really enjoyed the moment..though we're studying totally different stuff..but i could feel the motivation that we were giving one another..and his mum came home..gave us extra motivation by getting us to drink some tonics..then rion and i were figuring what it was..so comical..

was rather late then..so his mum was asking me if i wanna stay overnight..and i almost flipped..haa..but i decided not to..not gonna leave my roomie alone yah..

but when i reached the hall..my roomie is already aslp..faint..hee..but she woke up and chatted with me..hee..

my dearie is still not back..but he just called..just hope the play would be a success this wkend..

well..time management is gonna be extremely impt..gonna return to npcc once again..but luckily..the course is starting only in dec..and one funny thing is..gonna have an interview tml..the interviewers are collin and..mr evil..
*faint*
i shall control and not laugh..hee..
this means i cant dye my hair when i'm under probation..shldnt be a bad thing yah..save money..or i wonder how much i gonna spend on dying my hair again..hee..

k..shall stop here..dearie's back..safe and sound..hee..tata..

*felt the love..felt the touch*

taking into consideration..

2005-08-21T13:07:00.000-07:00

heya..

it's raining heavily..suppose to be on my way to mr evil's hse now..but well..shall wait for awhile yah..

went to study with maria 1 and 2 yesterday..was raining heavily as well..but we managed to revise though there was some distraction by the rain..and marias..remember the red thingy?..haa..

den..managed to catch a movie with joy and sig.."the maid"..wat can i say..the start was scary..with all the sudden appearance of those digusting images and the sound effect freaked me up..poor mr evil got to hug me so tightly..telling not to be scared as i was already crying..hee..

thanks my dearie..

wasnt able to talk to sig and joy tat much cos we parted right after the show..gonna catch up with u guys again yah..

then..went to fonds and bought a dress and a shawl..all PINK..hee..k..i'll stop spending so much..

hmm..my schedule is rather packed this coming week..lotsa gathering..going nus right after sch on tue..ali..wat time will u be in sch?

and gonna celebrate xian's bdae at night..

as for wed..gonna pia my studies..maria 2 and maid falling off..dun forget worz..

gonna meet up with su on fri..finally both of u can meet le..been waiting for this day for so long..tot of going home on fri night to get some stuff..or maybe sat morning bah..shall see how..see when my 2nd bro will be home den i'll decide..maybe i can even ask him to come and fetch me home..hee..

k..shall go out now..before the rain gets heavier again..tata..=p

*taking things in my stride*

honeymoon period?

2005-08-19T23:32:00.000-07:00

heya..

here comes my weekly updating again..hee..

just came back to hall..had dinner at mr evil's hse and went to get some stuff..

just realised the PINK mouse is so useful..

*grinz*

recalling..

as usual..mon was a long day..right after sch..had rally back in hall..

i shant comment much..

i just hope the 5th JCRC will do a better job..doesnt it mean i need to commit myself as well?

the next day was the voting day..did some revision before i went to vote..knew the results late at night..

*expected*

wed was a day i was anxiously looking for..had a formal dinner with his mummy..was really enjoyable..felt so blessed..felt so loved..his mum is great~

had a intellectual chat with her..chatted with rion too..forever a joker..

oh yar..and i have eye infection in the morning..almost fainted..luckily it wasnt tat obvious when i went to his house..hee..

thur was fine..mr evil cheated me to the medical centre..i know he meant well..and made a joke out of everything..the doctor almost flipped..haa..u noe wat i mean lah..

studied with him at hall 7..so touched by mr evil's fantastic effort..you know what i mean yah..i'll walk through with you k..

as for today..no school for me..as it is union day..my chem prof decided to cancel the lecture..lalala~

went over to ntu to meet jean and sook..chatted and chatted..bought some stuff and headed back to my hall..maria was supposed to study..and wat happened?..how can a maid ask her employer to do manicure for her?..the world has changed..haa..

gonna study again tml..with sook..3 more chem tut and 1 psychology assignment to go..

we jia you together k..

well..heard some craps on wed night again..

to you..

i noe u do read my blog..i dont deny tat i read urs too..

say i'm busybody or wat..cos arent you one as well?

just a piece of advice..

love urselves..love your body..

dun live for others..but live for urselves..

dun hurt yourselves in order to gain ppl's attention cos it's futile..

not only ppl will sneer at you..you will hurt urselves deeper..be it physically or mentally..

you may be thinking who i am to comment on wat u're doing since i've all the best by my side..

but dont u think u're fortunate as well?

your friends and family are always there to shower you with care and concern as well..

isnt that more crucial than any other love that you had once received?

think about it..

being immature will bring you to nowhere..

both of us really want you to move on..

search for the life tat u really wish to lead..

stop looking back..

for you're just putting yourselves jeopardy..

think abt it..

just wanna wish you best..

well..this is not only for u..

ppl who are reading my blog..especially my students..i want u guys to learn from this as well..dun do anything silly that you will ultimately regret..

hAppy One MonTh~!!

2005-08-14T23:36:00.000-07:00

*blessed*

heya..

just feel like blogging since i've nothing much to do..hee..

went out the whole day..

went to town to catch the Charlie and the chocolate factory movie..a kid's show but is sweet..though i dozed off at the scene whereby it was showing about violet..hee..

den had dinner at mache..yum yum..but i still wanna eat my tom yum cup noodles..hee..

went shopping after tat..sweetie mr evil got me a piglet..and i named it as "cup cup"..wat a cute name isnt it?

*faint*

later..we went searching for wallets..took us near one hour before i finally got my dearie a Braun Buffel wallet..but i call it a moo moo wallet..hee..one that is rather useful compared to the rest..it has a coin compartment which would allow mr evil to feel a sense of security..hee..and a holder to display his pics..lala~

hope u really like it and it will last longer than the one you were using..

hmm..met up with his mum yesterday..was rather nervous then..cos i wasnt prepared..kinda at the eleventh hour before learning that i was going to meet his mum..and i was just wearing a 3/4 and a polo shirt..

*faint*

but well..wasnt tat bad afterall..his mum was kinda sweet..hee..

*relieved*

gonna meet her on wed to have dinner..better wear properly..hee..

as for today..i really enjoyed myself..your companionship is more than what i need..

*mUaCkZz*

ups and downs..

2005-08-12T22:46:00.000-07:00

heya..

it has been a week since i've blog..guess i can only blog on a weekly basis..

well..ups and downs for this week..

monday night was fun..had bbq for kolay at my hall..hope she really enjoyed herself..

met su on tue..finally..it has been so long since we met..both of us were just too bz..but we make a point tat we have to meet no matter what..

went to imm..since somebody couldnt find a time to go with me..was fun..bought some stuff back to my hall..the most impt thing was the fan..so much cooling now..

su carried the fan for me..eh ger..i can carry one k..hee..

both of us were trying to figure how to fix the fan..but well..looked for sos ultimately..james came to our rescue..thanks man..he's my senior staying in the same block..a very nice guy who has helped me with lotsa stuff..hee..

besides tat..heard lotsa craps..felt damn pissed..not only me has the kind of feeling..but the others as well..ah vet was so pissed too..wat a disgrace to her sch man..

so to you..if u happened to FINALLY find out who i am..and being a busybody you who happens to read my blog..this is for you..

i dont know wat stupid craps you are up to..but can you just stop being so CHILDISH?..watever motive you are up to..let me tell u this..u will NEVER succeed..dont try to shed tears to get others' sympathetic..ppl will just think tat u're trying to attract attention..if you want to speak to me..just come and find me directly..u do not have to go through so many ppl..dont try to make a big hoo-haa out of it k..u made ur own decision and u were so proud of it then..so just move on and fuck off from our lives from now on..stop saying that u're regretting..cos let me remind you..it's TOO LATE..you go ahead with ur tkd boy and stop being so IMMATURE..stop being a pest cos ultimately..we are not the one being affected but is YOU..

well..hope it'll be a better week after so much craps had happened..just gotten a new info..mr evil has finally opened up to his mum..so i hope the curfew wouldnt be as terrible as before?..=P

hmm..gotten have rally and election next week..lotsa stuff to clear by this weekend..or shld i say on sat?..sunday gonna be a special day..well..shall take it as an off day for myself after being so tight up with stuff for the past one week..hee..

anyway..2nd bro msged me this morning..i was touched to tears..he is always there to support my decisions..he really understand what i want in life..i miss you so much..

room alone

2005-08-06T23:52:00.000-07:00

heya..

it's a saturday night and i'm all alone in my room..

my dearest roomie..yvette..went home in friday afternoon..

however..mr evil came to stay over to accompany me on friday..so sweet..hee..

we had dinner outside and we bought poor jean dinner..always staying in her room alone at night..

hmm..have been staying in hall for one week le..had a lot of fun actually..hee..

well..i learnt how to use a washing machine taught by my roomie..hee..i have 'employed' 3 maids..namely maria 1 aka mr evil..maria 2 aka sook..and lastly..maid jumping down aka kolay..haa..

actually..got lotsa ppl to thank..especially my 3 maids..without them..my room would not be wat it is now..so clean..sook has been mopping the floor for me..

lotsa ppl have came over to chill before their next lect or tut starts..

rather busy this week..lotsa things to be planned..and i'll be having JCRC election next week..got to design flyers and banner and a resume..thanks to mr evil..ali and sook..or else i'll be damn stressed up this weekend..

on thurs..joy came over to visit me..so sweet..miss her lots man..and guess wat..she got me my jack and jill potato chips and other tidbits..and we went to develop some photos..so pretty man..

*touched*

sook got me 2 jay's posters..nice nice..

kolay is really shopping for a room warming gift for me..actually..it's okie girl..it has been very sweet of you to buy me dinner when my roomie was not ard..

went to sook's hse today to iron my clothes..thanks girl..

my roomie gonna bring an iron tml..so i dun have to disturb sook..hee..

hmm..going HOME tml morning to get some stuff..hey peeps..see..i'm going HOME tml k..dun say i nvr go HOME..hee..

1st formal sch day..

2005-08-03T20:52:00.000-07:00

heya..

hmm..havent been blogging quite afew days le..

have been rather bz..had to move my stuff to the hostel..

my mood was swinging up and down for the past two days..vexed up i guess..

lotsa ppl came to help me with my room..

got my keys on fri and thanks to ma'am lay kian..kolay..sook..yvette (my roommate)..and not forgetting my dearie mr evil..hee..

they helped me to shift the bed and cleaned up the whole room for me..while i was just sitting there watching..hee..

started moving everything on sat..yc..xian and gene came over to my hse to help me move the stuff..was really heavy but they carried everything all by themselves..not letting me carry anything..

*touched*

den..left in the late afternoon to meet joy for the ndp preview..hmm..march passed was great..but one the poor GOHs fainted during the parade..sad sad..

the performance was..erm..all i can say is..it was as if i was in chingay again..

-_-

love the fireworks..so beautiful..hope i'll get the chance to view it again..

as on sunday..pj's godfather was extremely nice and sweet..came over my hse to send me to hall..and he actually assisted me with my stuff..and he rejected to accept the fare..

*touched* once again..

den mr evil came to rescue..hee..helped me to carry the stuff to my room..

and we went to ikea to buy the things tat i was lacking..erm..as a result..we bought more than we shld..tat's me..as usual..haa..=p

hmm..gonna start learning how to wash my clothes..

i must be independent!!

got to think of wat cca to join to earn the pts to stay in hall..^headache^

and think i need afew more days to adapt to a new environment..without air con..

my neck is aching now..think i nvr sleep properly..hee..but luckily..my soft toys are with me..esp my chou chou..smells so good~

..mUaHaahAa..

k..shall end here..lastly..just gonna say..

I Love My New RoOm~!!

scream

2005-07-26T21:12:00.000-07:00

*SCREAM*

*GET LOST~!!*

heya..

i sound agitated?

quite lah..getting pissed off with some matter..

was kinda tired so i din blog last night..

well..have been attending and pon-ing the different talks..so boring..

sch formally starts next mon for year 1 student teachers..lotsa admin stuff to settle this wk..

registered the modules tat i need to study this sem..6 modules..

maths modules increase to 4 AUs instead of 3 AUs..and the rest are 3 AUs each..enjoy man..

met lotsa ppl these two days..ppl whom i havent met up for years..ppl whom i've always wanting to me..and of cos..ppl whom i hope i'll never see them again..

no classes for tml for it is a flag day..none of the ppl in my grp is going..

i guess i need to recap on my chem and maths..

lotsa stuff to settle..got to think wat i've got to bring to hall..gonna get the txt bks needed for lecture on next mon..

lotsa of ppl are wondering why i can stay i hall when my mum has actually objected it..hmm..shall i just say i have the rights to choose what i want?..2nd bro is totally cool abt it..and he shld be sponsoring me..so wat's the prob man..all along you have been thinking that i'm too pamered like a princess..so isnt is the best time to show you that i can be independent?

thanks gene..xian..and yc..gonna help me to carry stuff to my hall on sat..gene and xian sacrified thier tennis to come and help..=)

hope my 2nd bro doesnt need to return to camp on sat..or i got to take cab down..

having team bonding on thurs..shld be quite slack..the group is going to be my GESL with effect from year 2 all the way to year 4..so gonna know them now..

fri is a boring day again..nothing but talks till 3.30pm..gonna meet yc after that..he wanna come over to look for 03S13 gers..hee..hope he knows how to come..dun get lost hor~..=p

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well..well..been hearing lotsa stuff these few days..my turned off mode is turning to pissed off mode very soon..

cant i just start my uni life in a more peaceful way?

dont say u dun bother when u actually do..

maybe we shld just lead our separate lives in uni..dun want to put you in jeopardy as well..being stuck in the middle is terrible..

shocked looks = sarcasm = making me feel unbearable

do you understand?

your 1st time?..yar rite..

2005-07-24T22:16:00.000-07:00

heya..

woke up this morning..packed my stuff for tml..not much stuff to bring actually..and i'll never forget to bring my hall application..lalala~

den..went to cwp to get the pair of scandals that i've reserved..k..finally gotten a pair of scandals..

later..went to mr evil's hse..as usual..a road idiot like me..got lost once again..but..i managed to find my way thru by myself..i'm so proud of myself man..hee..

rion's back fron hk..had a short chat with him..and he bought me a soft toy from hk..so cute~

thanks thanks..=p

and sweet mr evil plaited a friendship band for me..

it's pink~..

^thanks mr evil^

joy going to camp tml..gonna miss her man..but it's okay..meeting her on sat..just the two of us..hee..

well..1st day of sch tml..looking forward?..not really lah..gonna be talks and talks and talks..i'll try not to slp yah..hee..meeting of og at boon lay to go to sch together..nice nice..=)

i guess in the afternoon will be better..cos there'll be a freshies ceremony in ntu..gonna meet up with kolay and others..yeah~

miss them lots..

chill up..

2005-07-24T00:48:00.000-07:00

heya..

went to give tuition in the morning..all the way till 3pm..

den..met up with joy in town..

sad..wanted to get the sandal tat i've wanted to buy since last wk..but guess wat..their smallest size was 5.5..faint..too big~!!

had an early dinner with her at swensen..yum yum~

then..sig came to join us..kept insisting tat he wanna watch movie..but well..we din in the end..went to the aracade followed by nydc to chill up..realised tat nydc is always the last stop before we go home..hee..

later on..mr evil came to join us..chatted for awhile and we headed home..

sig..hmm..i have no comment for you le..-_-

gonna wake up early tml to settle some admin stuff and to pack my stuff for sch on mon..

gonna be a brand new start..cool~

and guess wat..ultimately..i maybe staying in hall..lalala~..shall see how on mon..

mr evil: i'm a girl with attitude..not as nice as you think..hee..=p

red candy sucks..

2005-07-22T21:42:00.000-07:00

heya..

conclusion: red candy sucks..

i cant deny tat it's kinda scary but the ending sucks..

*confused*

nothing happening yesterday..but was kinda disturbed by wat my kids had told me..

yup..as for today..was rather pissed off in the early afternoon..supposed to leave sch after 1pm..but i ended up slacking in sch..

don kept asking me to pick up the call..

but being an attitude girl..

i ignored the calls..

but well..i returned call ultimately..

met up with mr evil at westmall..poor guy..had to endure with my temper..

i was fine after pouring out everything..

den..had to return to cwp..family dinner..my mum's bdae today..

haPpy bIrtHday mUmmy~!

after dinner..went shopping for awhile..my 2nd bro bought me a pair of 3/4 pants and a belt..

tHAnks koR~!

hmm..gonna be a long tml..

gonna give 4 hrs of tuition..den meeting joy and maybe sig and kolay..going to town to buy some stuff plus dinner..

jOy: coNgrats~..i waNna be Ur 1St paSsengEr okIe? =p

sU: duN overwoRk youRselves k..must rEst woRz.. =)

mR eVil: thanksforyourcareandconcern..

*muackz*

=asimplelifeiswhatialwayswanted=

break camp~

2005-07-21T12:06:00.000-07:00

break camp~

heya..

i'm back!!..hee..

in nbss now..reliefing again..

kinda tired..havent get back the hrs of slp tat i've loss during the camp..

camp was fun..my group got the best og award..

X-III

we rox~!!

during the 1st game on the 1st day..i've already got myself extremely dirty..flour..mud..etc..

2nd day was draining..went ard s'pore..and it started to rain heavily when we reached esplanade..

some of us had to dash thru the rain to get the answers..it was kinda scary..there was lighting and thunder..

but..we got the answers ultimately..hee..four of us were drenched..and i was freezing cold..esp when we were in the train..*trembling*

we got back to nie on time..yeah~

we intended to get some coloured papers to make 3 cards for our ogl..but..the nie bookshop was closed..

-_-

so..called someone for sos..sean was really sweet..bought the papers..came all the way to nie..and left them outside our tutorial rm..

then..he came back again to give us some coloured pens cause he expected that we needed then..thanks yah..=p

last day was a slack day..had mac for breakfast..followed by two talks and prize presentation..

then..had buffet lunch..the food was great..to end off..we took lotsa pics..

met up with sean after tat..kinda tired..so he sent me home after that..and i slept the whole day..hee..

gonna give tuition later..shall prepare a chopper..to kill myself after that..hee..

he's gonna come and fetch me..poor guy..cos i guess i gonna vent my anger on him..oops..=p

you're lost in my eyes?

2005-07-14T23:02:00.000-07:00

lost in my eyes ^_^

heya..

thanks joy for taking half-day leave yesterday just to acc me to nie..

*touched*

went out with sean yesterday after all my registration done in nie..

we walked a lot..kinda enjoy it..i just enjoy walking and walking provided i'm wearing my flats..hee..

however..on the way home was sucky..was alone and many questions kept flashing in my mind..

-tear-

knew that i had to make a decision that very night..so i did..

luckily..joy was on the other side of the phone..encouraging and supporting me..=)

no matter what was the decision..someone would get hurt..

i'm sorry..*guilty*

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as for today..was supposed to have tuition after sch but my kid was having fever..poor thing..so i decided to cancel the tuition..

met up with sean..chilled out at coffee bean at westmall..den..walked to joy's tuition centre to look for her..and we took half an hour before realising that the centre is hidden at one corner which was not sheltered..

-faint-

met up with joy and had dinner with her..we went home after tat..feeling tired actually..

anyway..to rion..i shld be the one feeling grateful for you're so willing to take over my relief teaching..thanks thanks..

short day for me tml..

hmm..where should we go?

but it seems that you're busy..

it's alright then..

there's always another day..

confidence level = zero

2005-07-12T23:36:00.000-07:00

i dont wish to fall again..it hurts..

heya..

hmm..feeling kinda tired actually..but just dun wanna slp as yet..what/who am i waiting for?

after teaching..went to meet joy and shit..was kinda late cos the HODs and mrs neo were discussing abt relief teaching..they're indeed lacking of teachers..they're looking for sos now..extending my stay all the way till my sch starts..

had lunch at crystal jade..the portion is rather small this time..dunnoe why..

then..went shopping..bought something..went all over orchard to look for it..at last..i've found one that has caught my attention..

shopped till ard 7pm and we headed home..

cant teach tml cos i gonna go to nie for registeration..meeting sean after that..just wanna chill up..

well..was clearing all the smses which no longer are impt and meaningful to me..removed the pics on my table..they shouldnt be on my table in the first time..

i know something's bothering me..but wat is it? -shrugs-

confidence level = zero

who's gonna boost it up?

who's gonna walk alongside with me?

are you willing to?

- trust..commitment..communication -

thanks peeps..

2005-07-11T10:26:00.000-07:00

in nbss..

heya..

i'm back again..was rather bz for the past one week..hence..no blogging done..

i've been reliefing in nbss since last tues..

my weekdays went quite fast..after teaching..i would either go home and rest or gone to give tuitions..simple life i guess..

on sat morning..went to moe to sign the teaching training agreement (TTA)

i shall announce that i'm gonna be a slave to MOE the next 8 donkey years~

i'm feel really grateful to my 2nd bro and my aunt..

my bro was supposed to return to camp in the morning for stand-by due to the london blast..but he actually took half-day leave to drive me down to moe and be my surety..thanks kor~..u roXx!!

and as for my aunt..she actually agreed to be my surety without hesitation..so touched..

since my bro has to rushed back to camp..my uncle came to fetch us..and he drove me to su's hse..so sweet of him..=)

den..su and i went shopping for awhile before meeting our gang..hee..

gene got us a shock of our lives..he was sound asleep and we couldnt wake him up..poor gene actually..had night duty and only managed to get afew hours of slp before meeting us..

went to cine yuki yaki to celebrate su's and bang's bdae..really enjoyed ourselves..as usual..i was the entertainer..whereby i always kena the unfair treatment..right su?..hee..

on sun..went to imm and jp with joy..did some shopping..was so crowded..and i've sinned again..bought another skirt..hee..

den met up with my kids..tan fon..joel and simon for dinner..went to look for my 1-2-5..hee..and we went to play pool..hee..fun fun~

was reading the straits times just now..go and read page H8..the 1st article..it's actually something that i've been longing for..will my dream becomes reality?..who can help me to fulfill my wish?

going to catch a movie with rion later..gonna watch six..a thai horror movie..hope it's nice..and hope the outing will be enjoyable..going home to get a change..to something more casual..

gonna have a packed schedule for this wk as well..and i like it..yeah~

su: i'm thirsty~!!

i beg you..

2005-07-04T01:22:00.004-07:00

no hope

is better than

fake hopes..

stop treating me like a FOOL..

i'm backing off from the game..

fuck off man..

2005-07-03T00:36:00.000-07:00

drunk..

heya..

hmm..went drinking just now..abit high now i guess..hee..

met joy in the afternoon..den join yc and his ns frens at bugis to play pool..havent been playing for quite some time..

den..met sig and we had fish and co for dinner..

after that..they wanted to catch a movie but was fully booked..hence..we headed down to aladdin for a drink..well..my aim was to pass something..

got there..kinda surprised that nic was at the bar..din noe he was working there..wonder since when..irritating guy..forgotten my name..at least joe still remembers me..hee..

dunnoe why..just felt like drinking till i get seriously drunk but joy stopped me..k..had two glasses only yah..

and i know i shldnt drink much too..has fallen sick this morning..wanted to eat medicine before going to drink but seems tat if i'd done so..i jolly well have landed in the hospital..haa..

so went drinking without taking any medicine..

sean was nice..called me to make sure that i was fine..he din want me to drink too much as well..thanks man..

den..xian and bang were at cwp to wait for me..and they sent me home..thanks too..

on the way home..i almost fell down..luckily i grabbed xian just in time to stable myself..hee..or i would have sprained my ankle..

well..one burden off my mind..i guess..

shall see wat happen tml before my volcano erupts..

for the time being..i just feel like saying..

f*** off..

brain dead

2005-07-01T18:22:00.000-07:00

brain dead..

heya..

only had 4 hrs of slp..played 3 hrs of tennis this morning with gene..while xian and bang joined us later after sch..and went to give tuition after that..and for the whole day..i only had an apple..din have time to eat..

hungry and exhausted..

feel so tired..both physically and mentally..

something has been troubling me all these while..but all of the sudden..i just feel like letting go..

joy insisted that i say everything..but..is there a need?..why is it me again?..if he remembers..if he ever bothers..he would have asked..

dun tell me about taking the initiative again..i'm sick and tired of this word..

sean's in ubin now..cant crap with me tonite..but at least he bothers to msg me when he's free..

* i might be a cruel heartless bitch..but at least i'm good
at it *

bugis..

2005-06-29T23:36:00.000-07:00

relaxed..

heya..

hmm..went back to pj this morning with joy and ali to get our cert..den..had an hour chat with our dearest mr siraj..hee..said a lot of stuff..meaningful stuff..

went down to sim with joy to settle her uni stuff..the sch looks not too bad..shld be a fine place to study in..=)

den..went to meet kolay at bugis..

well..told myself not to spend..but..hee..

bought a cap..a skirt and a bag..

enough is enough lena tan..hee..

gonna pei kolay to bugis tml again..she gonna get all her stuff at one shot..hee..

i'm not going to bring my cards..just gonna bring some cash..hee

rather pissed at somebody just now..but told myself to cool down..wat's the point in getting mad..rather disappointed though..

..sigh..

feeling hungry~

wedding dinner..

2005-06-29T00:42:00.000-07:00

heya..

hmm..havent been blogging again..so here i am..

came back from the wedding dinner..one that i was quite reluctant to attend..but do i have a choice?

elder bro flew our kite..he din go..so left my 2nd bro and i..

on our way there..bro got lost..turned round and round before finding conrad hotel..hee..but we were not late..

got there..saw my cousin..looked shuai sia..hee..nice guy..

not long when we got seated..

saw a group of ppl who were wearing thai costumes..and guess wat..they are my distant relatives..flew all the way back from bangkok..

think i saw one of them 4 years back in the funeral..

my bro and i had to greet them..and the first thing they said was i look like my dad..

i just gave them a smile in return..nice of them to still remember my dad..

my 3rd uncle said that they even went to pay respect to my dad..i was kinda touched..and memories came flashing in my mind..

something funny..when my uncle first looked at bro and i..he tot i was his gf..

omg~..both of us almost fainted..wat a joke..haa..

overall the dinner was fine..i mean..typical wedding dinner..wat more can i expect..

chatting with sean now..a guy whom i got to know thru te chingay parade..he was the ic while i was the 2nd ic..assisted me a lot..nice guy..he has many things in common with me..hee..

hmm..still not sleepy..but got to wake up early tml..gonna meet joy and ali to get our cert..havent been going back to college for some time le..shall look for siraj..haa..

*the courage*

mia..i'm back..

2005-06-22T12:56:00.000-07:00

heya..

went mia for a week..i'm back~

lotsa things happened for the past one week..

i've finally packed my room..clean and tidy now..hee...

gotten myself a bag and a pencil case..left a water bottle to match my bag..

went sentosa for tanning as well..shall go at least one more time before sch starts..

the rest of the days..other than giving tuitions..have been at home studying and reading story books..

having ndp rehearsal tml..gonna help out as a motivator..guess it gonna be fun..hee..

thinking of going new zealand or australia in nov if time and conditions permit..

if not..somewhere nearer will be fine too..just wanna chill..

gonna start saving now..

wanna be independent..

sick and tired of ppl controlling me..

many things have been troubling me..

family :(

..well..used to it i guess..

which is tougher..washing clothes or ironing clothes?

just wanna get out of this 'box' if i'm able to..

friends =P

all of you have been very supportive..thanks thanks..

next wk --> afraid but looking forward..shld be prepared for watever outcome..

P.I.S.S.E.D

2005-06-14T11:02:00.000-07:00

P.I.S.S.E.D

just not really in the mood to do anything..

pissed and disappointed with lotsa stuff..

studies..people..family..

everything's not in the right track again..

joy was there to talk to me throughout the whole night till 4am this morning..

thanks girl..hope you're fine as well..

-feellikecrying-

-stopbeingafool-

**scream**

baby..i love you..i still do..

2005-06-13T10:22:00.000-07:00

heya..

before i forget..sat's out (18 june 2005)..steamboat @ marina..gonna meet at marina mrt station at 1730 hours..thanks thanks..

hmm..went shopping with joy last evening..well..supposed to be joy shopping for clothes..but ended up i was the one buying..

got one cardigan and a jacket..shant buy deniem jacket cos i just cant find any suitable one..

now i left a bag and a pencil case to buy..and my shopping should be done..yup..

think i've become a shopping freak..no matter where i go..i'll just start buying..

well..back to my bad habit..whenever i pissed or upset..shopping is the only way to make me better..at least for awhile..

was extremely pissed the whole of yesterday..

-sigh-

I SHALL BE INDEPENDENT!!

missing earing..

2005-06-12T01:12:00.000-07:00

heya..

yawnz..

so tired..just woke up..lacking of sleep..having hangover i think..

met up with wk..yc..erza..sm..sig..ali..jh..joy..shit..

while we were having dinner..sig saw zn..wat the..

but luckily..he din see us..well..speechless..

after dinner..walked ard..went shopping for awhile..

got myself a lipstick..it's with shit..gonna get it from her tml..

den..went to aladdin..a new pub..

not a bad place actually..at least it isnt as cold as eski..

had a lot of fun over there..hee..

and i drank a lot..and guess wat..i did not get drunk..hee..not bad rite..

after 1am..left 6 of us..and we went to eski..

continued to drink..but at a slower rate..

den..we played number games cum truth or dare..

lotsa secrets were revealed..but they shall be kept within the 6 of us..if possible..

joy wasnt feeling well..so sig sent her hm..

4 of us started walking to esplanade..

on the way there..we talked a lot..they made me think a lot as well..they were just concerned..thanks peeps..

we took less than an hr to walk from tanjong pagar to esplanade..not bad rite..

the guys were tired so they took a short nap..

while kolay and i continued talking..had a very meaningful conversation..

halfway through the conversation..i realised i lost my earing..it is the earing that i wore for my prom nite..where did i drop it?

aladdin?..eski?..on the way to esplanade?

sigh..fateless..just wore it twice..

near 6am..we walked to the mrt station..and went home..

slept for 5 hrs..and i wanna sleep more..but i kinda hungry as well..shall go get something to eat..

gonna meet joy later at cwp to shop..see if i can get anymore clothes..

hmm..mood is rather down..lotsa things to settle..to plan..just dont feel like doing anything..

personality test~

2005-06-11T11:12:00.000-07:00

did a personality test about myself..

it's just so true~

Get to know yourself better

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.
The seriousness of your love:You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.
Your views on educationEducation is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

shopping~!!

2005-06-09T07:22:00.000-07:00

WeEeeeee...hee..went shopPing..=0

heya..

just got home not long..since both my brothers are not back..shall come online for awhile..hee..

big bro went dating..2nd bro has night duty..hee..

went to play 2 hrs of tennis this morning..

sprained my left wrist..rather painful..but shall leave it to heal by itself..

later..went to have lunch while mum called from bugis..and she reminded me of the wedding..

oh yar..i've totally forgotten abt it..she doesnt allow me to wear my black dress..so..got to shop for it as well..

met bang at bishan and we headed down to bugis..

after 3 hrs of shopping..got myself 5 tops and a dress..

the guys were my design consultants..

they helped to think of wat to wear for the wedding..and they banned me for buying mini skirt for the wedding dinner..

fine..so i got a slightly longer purple skirt..

well..thanks guys..=p

met su after that for dinner at v8 movies cafe..food was okay..but not the service..but we had a lot of fun there..hee..

then..went shopping again..the guys were so worried that i'll carry another few more shopping bag when i walked out of the store..so funny..

then..went back to cwp..to shop awhile more?..hee..

well..not going to get any jeans cos my aunt's buying for me..

and she giving me one of her notebooks for the time being..and when i somehow know wat kind of notebook that i really want then she will get it for me..anything actually..know nth abt it stuff..

don asking me for ktv on sun..eh..doubt i'll go..cos will be out late on sat..

besides..since i'm not getting the notebook now..my mum may consider to get me a digital camera..hee..

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notice for 03S13..

wanna apologise for the changes..cos the pits at yc's place are fully booked..so we gonna do away with the bbq..

however..gonna have dinner @ marina south..meeting @ 1700hrs @ marina mrt control station..*confirmed*

as for the plan in the morning..erm..i'm running out of ideas..so i seriously need you guys to give some suggestions..so msg me yah..thanks thanks..

rotted for 5 days..

2005-06-08T16:12:00.000-07:00

heya..

guess wat..i've rotted at home for 5 days already..oh man..

finally..gonna go out tml..yeah~

gonna play tennis in the moring with gene..xian and bang..

and they are going to accompany me to bugis to do some shopping..hee..

they dont really want me to go alone..gdgd..

hmm..seems like a lot of ppl wanna go eski after realising its existence..hee..

cant wait for sat to come..

*the sky is clearing..i guess*

wk is changing..hee..

2005-06-07T13:36:00.000-07:00

heya..

having a slight headache now..but it should be fine..

chatted with wk for 2 hrs last night..so long since we've chatted..

talking about lotsa stuff..well..people change as time goes..tat's gd isnt it..

and..wk is on abt sat too..great~..hee..

just chatted with ali..she's interested as well..really hope her mum will not object..

yesterday..had crab feast with my family..i still remember someone saying that he would have one with me as well..but..

guess it makes no difference to whom i'm having with yah..afterall..there wasnt any promise made..

gonna slack at home again..din manage to go for a jog yesterday cos it was raining heavily..hope i can jog today..

*life moves on.. ..even without you*

bad feeling..

2005-06-06T13:16:00.000-07:00

heya..

nth to do..shall just come and blog..

last night..my cousin and his family came..din see them for more than a year..

they came over to give my mum the wedding invitation..

28 june 2005..gonna think of what to wear again..

gonna have family dinner tonight..

shall go jogging before that..havent been jogging for two days..feel so uncomfortable..

*my mind is in a mess*
-only you can sort out my mind-

another gathering..

2005-06-05T15:52:00.000-07:00

notice for 03s13..

gonna have a dinner in town on 11 june 2005..tentatively meeting @ orchard mrt station @ 18oohrs..

programme goes on till next day..

msg me if u're interested yah..thanks thanks..=p

another early morning..

2005-06-04T08:06:00.000-07:00

heya..

say i'm crazy..hee..

another sms woke me up at 4.30am this morning..

this time was si wei..he asked me out for a chat..

din really want to go out so early..but he insisted..fine..was waiting for me at my block..

took a bath before i went out..cos was still kinda sleepy then..

havent been chatting with him for quite some time..

chatted till ard 7am..seeing the sky turning from dark to bright..really nice..

havent been waking up early to see sunrise..miss those time..

den..walked to 768 to buy breakfast..was feeling hungry..hee..so full now..

gonna be another boring day i guess..

at least yesterday i had to give tuition..so was able to go out for awhile..other than that..slack..

think my mum's going overseas again..good or bad?..hee..

*dozing off*

hmm..shall go and catch some sleep..

yawnz..nite nite..haa..

^_going wild_^

tired..

2005-06-03T11:58:00.000-07:00

heya..

feeling rather tired now.din have a good night..tossing and turning on my bed..was supposed to be able to slp cos it was a long day..but..*dunnoe*

yesterday..

met shit..den went to have lunch at yishun..later..went to jon's place to play com games..and ended up i forgot the time..

reached yck 10 mins late..gene..xian and bang were waiting for me..

my coach was already there..settled some stuff and we started playing..was really fun..

we played for 3 hrs..and we played at the private court at the last hr..so tired after that..

took a bath..and we walked to amk for dinner..walked ard amk for at least half hour before deciding what to eat..faint..

took train back to admiralty..gene needed to buy something..so went to the supermarket..

and i saw zn's mum and sis..*shock*..we tried to avoid them..doubt they saw us..bang wanted to greet them..but..better not..

bang walked me home..on the way home..he told me abt zn..he changed..to an extent that no one can be bothered with him..

back home..was talking to yin chong while sigmund called..three of us had a conference..then i called joy as well..gonna have another outing yah..

joy..check your schedule and tell me k..

gonna give tuition at 2pm..tot of going for a jog after that..but..rather drained now..

just trying to find something to do so that i will not be staying at home all the time..

-stoning-

wake me up so early..

2005-06-02T09:22:00.000-07:00

listening to: chi xin jue dui / li sheng jie

heya..

hmm..dunnoe if my han yu pin yin is correct not..but heak lah..i'm nvr good at it..hee..

got waken up by a msg again..this time is shit..she wants to meet me half an hour earlier..anything lah..

she say there's an exciting story to tell me and i gonna hear a whole string of vulagarities out from her later..her turn today..*clean ears*

talking about yesterday..argh~~~

damn freaking pissed..morning was good enough..afternoon was worse..wat the..

i seldom have whole string of vulagarities out of my mouth..but yesterday i really couldnt stand it man..

nag nag nag..
shut up and let me do my own stuff lah!!

even shit was rather irritated..but she said ' wat to do?..my mama oso lidat one..'

sian sia..i hate ppl to nag or talk craps when i know what i'm doing..
*pissed*

dont just try to be good to me when you need help from me..there's a limit..

ended up..i scalded my finger and broke one of my nails..i've left with no choice but to cut it..sob sob..

after everything's done..went to 768 to get a drink..soft drink and anything else..just needed to cool down~

both of us couldnt finish the drink in the end..hee..

sent shit to the mrt station..in any case she gets lost AGain..like in the afternoon..hee..den..went to xian's hse..

gene and bang were there already..saw vodka!!..miss him so much!!..havent seem him since before my A level..

gene and bang were playing ps2 while i was watching bleach..yeah..managed to watch 4 espisodes and they introduced me another animae..watched 5 espisodes of AIR..nice nice..k..i shall continue watching these two animaes..hope i dun get mixed up..hee..

den gene walked me home..he din want me to go home by myself though it journey back wasnt that long..thanks gene..he must be sleeping now..he hasnt slept the whole of yesterday..

gonna meet shit for lunch..den gonna play tennis with gene..xian and bang..cos i'm not having tennis lesson today as hide cant make it..gonna teach them some basic skills and we can start playing..yeah..next time can play with them..

a long day for me..but i like it..rather than staying at home..

^bleah^

waiting for shit..

2005-06-01T13:18:00.000-07:00

listening to: No tears in Moscow / twins

heya..

shall just blog till shit comes my hse..prepared all the stuff already..

was damn pissed off this morning with my mum..so i went out by myself instead of going with her..

on my way home..felt bettter..maybe i just wanted to be alone..

back home..she helped me to clear the stuff..get the things that i need..no comment..*relax*

she went out with her friends already..home alone now..

i really hope it doesnt rain till shit's here cos my mum hang some clothes outside..and erm..i dunnoe how to bring it in if it really rain..

shit..better be here before it starts to rain k..

hmm..waiting for a msg..
*how's ur results huh?*

sentosa with him..(my 1st time)

2005-05-31T21:52:00.000-07:00

heya..

took my bro's laptop to blog since tat su wants to watch tv..gonna make her feel guilty..hee..kidding..

got waken by a msg at 7am this time..guess wat..went to sentosa..was rather rushed..but at least i was able to reach harbour front within an hr rather than 2..

the sun was shining brightly when we got there..think i've turned even darker liao..more ppl gonna mistake me as a malay..sian..

managed to watch afew episodes of bleach..shall go xian's hse to watch more tml if possible..since i need to pass him something and he needs to pass me the money for the rackets..

su..u better be able to make it tml..gonna bring some for u hor..

gonna wake up early to go get some groceries tml before shit comes to my hse..has been waiting for tml to come since last week..cant wait man..hope it'll be a success..hee..

hmm..delong gonna cancel his tuition for next wk cos he has another camp..gonna be the 2nd time..asked him if he wanna change to another day..but he didnt seem to understand wat i was saying..sigh..he changed a lot after the last tuition i had with him..think he has found out something which isnt true actually..at first..i tot i was thinking too much..but even su feels that he seems to know something..

as much as i do not want him to get the wrong idea..i've the responsiblity to help him do better in his maths..hinted him that he may forget the things that i've taught him and he actually said he would not forget everything and would remember at least a little bit..oh man..i'm really speechless..shall see how much he can remember the next lesson..

to all navalities: know it's hols now..but do not slacken..rather disappointed to hear that some of you have done badly for mye..while u shld relax during this hols..gonna do some revision as well yah..

*bleah*

.............

2005-05-30T12:12:00.000-07:00

heya..

woke up not long..was lazing on my bed..since i know i've nth to do even when i wake up so early..

went out last night with don..he wanted to get rid of his guilt..hee..

met with rather late..at 11.30pm..all because of the formula one car race..ferari is getting so lousy..

on the way to the bar..we talked a lot..guess he needed a pair of listening ears..

he asked for my help..shall help him wherever i can..

hmm..got home quite early actually..reached home at around 2.30am..enjoyed the breeze once again..but i felt it was different..maybe i shouldnt expect too much yah..

yup..gonna be another slacking day..sian..

sab: i'm fine..it's not becos of ys..y do u think it's becos of him?..hee..

appearing again?

2005-05-29T11:46:00.000-07:00

heya..

the rain has just stopped..cool weather now..

went out to have dinner with my mum and 2nd bro..while shopping mum was talking abt hostel again..thinking of the stuff that i need to get..and she said 2nd bro would help me bring all the stuff there..i asked if she would come together..well..she wants to but..ultimately..doubt she would come..think she just cant bear to see me stay in hostel..

well..i got to learn to be independent no matter what..at least she is more reassured when i told her i would go back every weekends..to make sure my elder bro nvr enter my room..if he ever dare to..

went home after that to watch the live music awards..

memories flashed back when i heard one of the songs..

it was by wu bai..nvr in my whole life will i tot i would noe how to sing..

it was in J1 when i came across the song..and someone actually taught me how to sing..and that someone had been singing it to me for more than a year..

was looking through the lyrics last night..and i realised the meaning of it..kinda late though..what's past is gone..

woke up quite early today..hmm..you woke me up..make u feel guilty..hee..kidding..

was supposed to learn how to cook chicken rice from my mum..but..erm..i think she ended up cooking everything by herself..haa..

gonna meet shit's cousin later to pass him the sleeping bag..dun even noe who he is..hope i dun give the wrong person..hee..

after that..gonna go for tennis lesson..

yup..guess that's gonna be my sunday..

*to all navalities who are taking your chinese O level tml..all the best..stay focused..=)

thanks man!..so much better now..=)

2005-05-28T10:36:00.000-07:00

heya..

hmm..mum woke me up to have breakfast..-faint-

wanted to sleep longer..slept late last nite..was talking to yin chong for 2 hrs..think his hp bill gonna explode..every nite oso talk on phone..and his bunkmates scolded him for talking too loudly..haa..

well..was crapping with hin and at the same time..he was 'counselling' me..haa..feel so much better after that..at least he has kinda woke me up from the unrealistic dream..thanks man..=p

gonna be a boring saturday again..shall slack at home..

i need to call up many ppl again..regarding the bdae celebration..shall get wk to assist me..with him ard..everything will turn out great..

sab: sorry..but doubt i would wanna watch..the moodis just not there..get james to go with u k?..sorry..

hide: if u're reading this..eh..dun think i wanna have lunch tml..just wanting to go for tennis..msg me to confirm again k..

*release the kite*

let it go?

2005-05-27T11:22:00.000-07:00

**tired of controlling.broke down.let it go?.tears**

heya..

forced don to stop surfing the net to let me blog for awhile..

yup..in sch now..

feeling kinda moody..i noe i shouldnt be..but..

din really slp well last night..couldnt slp well actually..a lot of things are spinning in my head..

everything seems so fake..i'm trying to hide everything..tot it would better to hide everything and act as if everything's fine..but it's really tough on me..i really dunnoe wat to do..and is there anything that i can do?

hmm..wanted to go cwp to walk ard alone later..

but asked hide along instead..guess i need someone ard me..yup..

-sigh-

he msged me..

2005-05-26T19:02:00.000-07:00

heya..

hmm..saw gene at the mrt station in the morning..was talking to him throughout the journey..talking abt jap animae..abt future..blah x 3..

went to sch today..just as boring..slack the whole day..played arm wrestling with students..so funny..hee..

ys came to talk to me..everything's back to normal i guess..lotsa stuff to catch with him..

after sch..met up with shit for lunch..went crazy again..ate a lot..then..went espirit to try out some clothes..gonna buy it at cwp tml..

then..slacked at jon's shop for awhile..was playing with his laptop..hee..

well..tennis lesson was cancelled..time crashes..it's okay..some other days then..

got back home..bathed..and can came straight to blog..had to check something for yin chong..hope it helps him in one way or another..yup..

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anyway..here's a notice for 03S13..

bdae celebration on 18 june '05 @ yin chong's condo..
bdae celebration for who?..kindly msg me for more info..and pls pass the msg ard..i need the confirmation asap..thanks thanks..
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**am i still waiting?**
**or should i just let it go**
**blank**

techno..

2005-05-25T14:56:00.000-07:00

heya..

just feeling bored..so shall come and blog..

mrs lee called just now to ask me back for relief tml..sure..if not..i gonna be at home all y myself tml..cos my mum's going out with my aunts again..

shall go straight for tennis lesson after that..too lazy to come home and change..

slacking at home with my mum now..listening to techno songs..dunnoe where my bro got it from..

was talking to my mum about uni stuff..mum gonna ask my aunt to order the laptop for me..was asking wat kind of laptop i want..anything will be fine as long as it's light and small..hee..

dun wanna carry a heavy one to and fro..can die..

mum and bro keep wanting me to go hostel..hanna hanna..shall try out and see it's like..shld be fun..not mentioning about washing clothes by myself..and cleaning the floor.. -faint-

gonna buy clothes for uni too..mum's going with me..but not gonna get them so early..or i'll start wearing them now..hee..

feel so bored now..shall do some drawing later and maybe go for a jog..nth better to do..

**keeping myself so so occupied**

i HAVE to move on..no matter wat..

2005-05-24T19:26:00.000-07:00

heya..

this morning..nBsS called me again..was awake when the sch called..kinda expected that they would call..

got there before lesson started..don saw me..he was guilty..hee..but din have the time to talk to him..my timetable was packed..and by the time lesson ended..i got to rush to give tuition..

was kinda bored in sch..

started drawing..did a drawing for 1E1..

hmm..really miss the period of time when i enjoyed drawing so so much..i could spend up to 5 hrs straight to draw..and my parents would be there to support me..and my dad would praise me whenever i finished a drawing..well..it is the past already..

went to give tuition after sch..after the tuition..all i can say is..can someone kill me.. -faint-

went home..felt that i needed a little breather..went jogging..

had a little gastric pain while jogging..maybe bcos i din eat much..din have the time to have a proper meal before tat..

feel so much better now..everytime after jogging..i would feel comforted..it's like things that have bothering me would just fade away as i run..

sab dearie: i am fine..at least for now..thanks ger..really touched to learn that u actually went to the mrt station to see if you would meet me..hope everything's fine for u too..hols is coming..got to make gd use of it k..catch up with you real soon..

yah..mum saw my tattoo..she accidentally filpped open my hp and saw the pic..and she insisted in showing her my back..haa..kpo queen..she din say anything..well..she doesnt mind i guess..

hmm..i have to move on..no matter wat..may the strength be with me..hee..lame..

*daddy..i miss you*

mum's home..

2005-05-23T15:02:00.000-07:00

heya..

home sweet home..

got home at ard 2pm..and half an hr later..my mum's hm..

found out the my elder bro brought his gf home again..shall get it from me later..

last night was really fun..

su and i were so bored..

we went to old checkpoint for a walk..and bought some food home..had a mini party for the two of us..hee..

slept at 2am..wanted to stay up longer..but i was so so tired..fell aslp all the way till ard 9am..

shall slack at home for the whole of today..

2nd bro is watching star wars now..yucky..hee..

su's hse..

2005-05-22T16:22:00.000-07:00

heya..

well..blogged at 2am this morning..but the internet connection got cut off and there goes my blog..

shall make a brief one then..yesterday was a packed day..

went queensway with gene..kel..xian..bang..and su..enjoyed myself..

i was the joker of the day..i'm always the joker anyway..had lotsa fun..so comedy man..

den..went ecp with su..the students gave me lotsa food to eat..really nice..

den..midway..something lame happened..just a child's play..

left ecp at 9pm and went home to change..cos don wanted to go for a drink..fine with me..

after that..went to cwp to meet up with gene and gang to chat first..and were waiting for don to come and fetch me..

we waited for a very long time..don was still mia..wat the..couldnt contact him at all..

then..i left with su and her parents..we had supper together and went to her hse to stay..will be staying for two nights..

my mum would be so happy..at least there's someone to look after me..

hmm..din really slp much..not used to slping without air con..kept playing with my pigglet..

next morning..my piglet woke su up..hee..got ourselves prepared..had breakfast that parents had bought for us..so sweet of them..thanks thanks..and we went out..

rather tired when on our way back to woodlands..i actually fell aslp in the train..yawnz..

we made toast to eat..erm..more like su made it for me..and she taught me to do some washing..but din really succeed i guess..hee..gd luck to myself if i wanna stay in hostel..hee..

hmm..just hope that i wun kena fly kite again..hate it man..once is gd enough..

and just let me do whatever i want..dun stop me..

mum's overseas..

2005-05-21T11:56:00.000-07:00

heya..

home alone again..

mum just left for hols again..

cooked breakfast for me before she left..

mood swinging here and there again..

when will THE msg come?

or never?

-sigh-

tattoo..

2005-05-20T19:42:00.000-07:00

heya..

shall blog since i've nth to do..

went..received call from nbss to go down for relief teaching..agreed..and i took cab down..

supposingly to meet su in the morning..to get some stuff done..-failed-

shant talk about it..it'll just make me feel more moody..sigh..

after sch..met shit..she accompanied me to do air brush tattoo..

i like it a lot..

actually..tot of doing a real one..but..well..shit gave me one month to reconsider before making any decision..so..one month from now..it'll be 20 june 2005..hmm..i shall be patient..

bought a tube as well..

din really have the mood to shop..

wanting to go out at night..

don flew my kite..watever..

no one seems to be free..sian sia..

there're some things tat i kinda getting impatient..or shld i say..drained..has my effort gone to waste?

only one person can give me the answer..

tanning..

2005-05-15T13:36:00.000-07:00

heya..

shall update abt tml..

in the morning..went to sentosa..on the way there..it rained..kinda spolit my mood..but luckily..it stopped once we reached harbourfront..

stayed at sentosa till 2pm..was really tanned..grabbed a bite at harbourfront and headed down to orchard..

went to play pool at cine..and had dinner at cafe cartel..our last stop was to take neoprints as we had extra money..

after that..met up with amanda and steph..it rained again..although i had umbrella..we were drenched..argh~..

went to mox..din like it..steph and i kept wanting to go back to eski..yup..got there at ard 1am..i din drink cos i knew i couldnt take it anymore..

stayed there till 3..was waiting for amanda to finish drinking for beer which she was being dared..

took a cab down to orchard..and took a NR home..was rather tired..

got home..was expecting a msg but..my hp din ring at all..*disappointed*

slept all the way till 12nn..wanted to slp longer but a phone call woke me up..joel called to ask me chemistry qns..got to go down to civic to teach them again..shall recap on my chem as well yah..

yup..shall end here..tata..

status = single

2005-05-13T08:22:00.000-07:00

status = single

heya..

hmm..yup..many things happened..was once devastated..friends were damn concerned..but hey..i'm fine now..no worries yah..

well..went to queensway with hide to look for tennis racket..going on sunday to buy it..

den..went to city hall to look for nightwish album..but was out of stock..sad sad..

den..met up with shit at cwp..she was supposed to knock some sense into me..but when i met her..everything was fine already..went shopping..bought some stuff again..went foodcourt to have dinner..and we chatted for quite some time..hee..

had the sudden tot of having a tattoo..shit supported me..but..as if my mum would allow..pigs can fly if she really agrees..

yup..back home..gonna apply my purple nail polish..but before that..got to pack my bag for tml..TaNniNG @ SenTosA..finally the day has come..heE..

yup..tat's all i wanna say for today..tata..

devastated..

2005-05-12T13:26:00.000-07:00

all i want to say is..sorry..

-devastated-

updating of the past 5 days..

2005-05-11T13:58:00.000-07:00

heya..

hmm..havent been updating for the past 5 days?..my schedule was rather packed..and whenever i got home..either i woulod be too tired or both coms were being occupied..

shall briefing talk abt wat had happened the last few days..

cant remember wat i did on sat..yah..i went to play tennis with hide..so fun..hee..

as for sunday..went to civic meet up with tan fon and gang to study maths..erm..i was slacking there actually..at night..went out again with friends..got hm like 5 am..can die man..

for monday and tuesday..was bz with the teaching bond..had to travel to nie and moe respectively..just signed the bond with moe yesterday..gonna be a four-year bond..wish me luck yah..

hope joy will get in too..and she can share the hostel with me..dun wanna stay alone..hee..

as for today..shall stay at home..eh..tan fon asked me if i would be going civic later..think think 1st..

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this is for those going to sentosa on this sat..u guys shld noe who..

need to keep u guys updating since i'm the one organising..

two places you can meet up: 8.30am at JE mrt platform or 9 @ harbour front bus interchange..

shit is going to bring two mats..

i nd to noe if anyone is going to bring frisbee or netball..just msg me to inform me yah..

and..after tanning..will be having lunch..thinking of meeting lizhen after the college day to pass the bdae present to her..and are u guys interested in going to pub?..joy doesnt mind..so just wanna know who are interested..if not..we can just go shopping den dinner..yup..tat's all for now..just pass this msg around yah..thanks..

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to my teddy bear..

ppl always say..if u grab the string of the kite too tightly..it will snap..if u hold it loosely..it will fly away..

so how are you going to get the balance out of the two?

well..i choose to hold it loosely..

both of us have too many things to do..that we are not able to meet up often..but i'm fine with it..

i used to enjoy material comfort..but not so much now..even since i started to work..

u should know what i really want..

there are so many things that i want u to know..but i shant rush things..shall take one step at a time..

-hugs-

boring..

2005-05-05T18:36:00.000-07:00

heya..

shall blog before i go for my dinner..

i'm so guai today~

stayed at home for the whole day..

well..was supposed to give tuition today..but..that teresa cancelled it at the last minute..and said that he wanna have the tuition only after mid-year exams..wat the..

an hour later..teresa msged to ask if i could go and give tuition then..i refected it cos i felt that he has no interest to excel at all..

and i felt that i was more eager than he did..i even had to msg him last night to set a tuition time..forget it..i will only tutor those who are interested and eager to learn..

just then..i asked hide if she neededuition not..and she agreed..great~

slack at hm..watched dvd..and was uploading pics onto the com..

just received a letter from nie..having a tea session on monday..got to travel all the way to nie somemore..yawnz..

meis~..i got the pics uploaded already..hee..

sab: i know u're feeling very stressed up..endure k?..after your mid-year exams..we shall catch a movie and chill a little..miz ya..=)

su: cheer up ger..things may be getting out of hand..but i'm sure u're strong enough to face them..dont take things too hard..no matter wat..my family and i will be there to support you..u go ger~

navalities: mid-year exams is round the corner..jia you..i'm sure you guys will do well..all the best..

mango bikini..

2005-05-04T20:46:00.000-07:00

heya..

finished my dinner and here i am..

as usual..went jogging in the morning..

den accompanied shit for her interview in moe..unexpected questions..

went to town to shop..

went to most of the jewel stores cos shit wanted to get something for her grandma..and she got a blue crystal jem from goldheart..not bad..

had lunch at crystal jade..ate a lot man..yum yum..

got myself a mango bikini..looks alright..so bought it to pamper myself..hee..

shit accompanied me to khatib mac to look for my kids..they needed someone to teach them maths..

had a fun time there..saw a shuai ge..but..nvm..

left at 7pm to meet su to go hm together..went to cwp to get her dinner and we left..

while waiting for bus..delong called me..and stupid like hell..i board the wrong bus..

when i got up the bus..felt strange..din feel like the bus i've always took..i was right when the the turned to the left instead of going straight..was too embarrassed to alight at the 1st bus stop..wanted for someone to press the bell..i hurried got down the bus..oh man..where were i?..called su for sos..told me the way..

finally saw the market that i used to go with my mum..like more than 4 years ago?..tried to recall the way back..finally..saw some familiar sites..

got hm..told my mum and bro that i took the wrong bus..and they started to tease me..saying must be there were some shuai ge and i just followed him up the bus..what the..please lor..the driver is an old uncle lor..hee..

everyone who saw me today tot that i was crazy..i had my hair plaited into two..my mum did it for me..hee..just felt that i wanna have a change in hair style..hee..

squad gathering..

2005-05-03T10:58:00.000-07:00

heya..

yawnz..wanted to wake up early to go for a jog..but felt that i needed more beauty sleep..well..excuses..

had a memorable time yesterday..

met my squadmates at papy lebar and left for ql's hse..

while some were starting the fire..some were chatting away..two little boys came..they were so rude~..they sat down at our place and asked for a cup of drink..they did not even say a please..if i was their mum..i would definitely give them two tight slaps..ql was nice to pour them a cup a drink and the boy was still choosing from the different flavours..wat the..be glad that we are giving u a cup of drink and yet u still wanna choose..omg..

they did go after tat..they continued sitting there..i got pissed and i asked the kids where were their parents..one of them apparently got scared and kept quiet..but later..he asked for a cup of drink again..and i said if we would give him provided his parents were present..

hwee got fed up as well..went straight to the boys and said.."why not i give u a cup of drink and you get lost?"..and guess wat the boy said.."then i dun wan the drink".. '_'

fine..we ignored them..just dun disturb us..well..at least they created some entertainment for us..hee..and this answered the question why i dun wanna teach in primary sch..

well..had lots of 'intellectual' talks again..afew mths ago..we were talking abt getting a gd boyfriend..now we are talking abt getting a gd husband..

we left at ard 11pm..took the longer route hm cos wanna accompany pj..gonna meet them on friday night again..

got hm..was tired..went straight to sleep..

gonna give tuition later..prepared all the stuff that i need already..

hmm..wonder how are the kids in nbss now..

how's sab..hope everything's fine for her..time to settle down for some solid studying..

tired..

2005-05-02T13:02:00.000-07:00

heya..

gonna blog abt yesterday..

went to northpoint in the afternoon to meet tan fon and gang to study..and i bought afew cards for the nBss teAchers..gonna send them through mail..

at 4.30pm..met up with the 3e4 ppl to go marina south to have bbq buffet..

as usual..some were late..hee..

later..deric low..phang and levanne came..had a lot of fun..all were talking non-stop..

after the buffet..went to play pool and aracade..

jelyn..i got blueblack on my knee because of u..hee..

the whole outing ended at ard 11.30pm..

yar..sunder msged me during the dinner..but i was too busy to entertain him..

book a cab and left with fann cos she's staying at admiralty too..

found out the fann is staying in the same block as my ex..just 2 storeys different..

got home..din wanna slp yet..went to mark some tuition hw..slept at ard 1.30am..

this morning..wanted to wake up early to jog..but i was too tired so i thought of sleeping longer..

but the delong called me to wake me up at 8am..oh man..i was so tired..later..i went back to sleep again..hee..

went jogging at 10.30am..kinda warm then..but i just had the urge to jog..

all alone at hm now..mummy has gone to my aunt's hse..my bro is sending her there..

having a squad gathering later..got to take train all the way to paya lebar later..yawnz..another bbq to go..

a place in ntu..

2005-05-01T10:36:00.000-07:00

heya..

as usual..didnt have the time to blog last night..

reached ecp at ard 12nn..got there..the guys and some girls were in the water..and i started chatting with adeline and wei lin..my mei meis..they're really sweet..=)

den..stayed at ecp till 4pm..before we left..had coffee at coffee beans with my mei meis..had the sudden urge to drink coffee..

yap msged..to thank me for the cd..den..i was damn sacastic say that if his gf misunderstand..tell her that we are just FRIENDS..if not he can just throw the cd away..lala~

den..we took a bus followed by the train to tanjong pagar..

in the bus..tan fon..mei meis and i were gossiping abt 'theresa'..hee..'she' asked me to watch house of wax with 'her'..but i doubt so cos i wanna watch with sab..hee..

was so fun when we were in the train..they greeted me loudly with good afternoon ms lena tan..so embarrassing but was really memorable..we created a llot of din in the train..reminded me of when i was a sec sch student..=)

throughout the whole day..i kept insisting of dawing su ling's eyes with eye-liner..find that she can be extremely gothic..den justin was so happy..wat a bf man..never even help her..hee..

den..we walked to the uic building..never gone there before..and i will never forget how joel crossed the road with me..i'll get my revenge..hee..

had dinner at noble house restaurant..tan fon and gang started singing..throughout the whole dinner..u could laugh non stop..and there were really a lot of good food..yum yum~

finished dinner at around 11..and guess wat..the dinner cost near 900 bucks..cool~

took train home..again..created a lot of noise..hee..

while i was walking home..was talking on the phone with delong..heard from him that someone is spreading a rumour abt yap and i again..and it's one of james's friends..gonna find out who is it..

got home..saw a letter sent by moe..i'm offered place in ntu for bachelor of science (edu)..got to send the reply slip soon cos there's a briefing on 10th May..shall take these few days to consider..but i'm happy though..=p

k..got to have my breakfast..gonna meet hide later and head to marina south for their class gathering..gonna have buffet for 4 days straight..wo~

last day..

2005-04-30T09:56:00.000-07:00

heya..

din have the time to blog last night..so here i am..gonna blog very fast..cos i have to rush to east coast park later..

well..was the last day in NbsS yesterday..

met sab as usual..she and ada got me a piglet..levanne and i named it as dar-dar..gonna miss the journey to sch with her..

got to sch..went to the staff room..vicky was there..right on my desk..hee..so cute..thanks don..

then..passed the cd and the card to don..he was to pass it to yap..and left all the farewell cards to the respective nie teachers..

den..delong came..he got me a piglet too..and a piglet hp accessories..and i named the piglet as strawberry..cos there's a strawberry logo of the leg..thanks thanks..

lessons as usual..near the end of the lessons..give the kids sweets..they were so happy..seeing them so happy made me smile also..

had pizza party in the staff lounge..but i got to gave it a miss cos i was having lessons..but they left a slice for me too..and i asked ly to give one to yap as well..

phang came to the class while i was having lesson..well..he wanted to give the sweets together with me..den..we took pics together..didnt really want to cos i got to sit beside phang..but well..ended up we took oso..cos phang insisted..

went back to the staff room after my last lesson..saw yap talking to ly..later..when yap left..went to talk to ly..

well..i almost cried..tears was abt to roll down..but i cooled myself down..ly confronted Him..

yap said He din mean to lie to me..just that he couldnt find a right time to explain to me..wat the..and ly told Him that He owed me an apology..watever..

in the afternoon..delong came to look for me..he passed me a card and said it was from yap..i wasnt happy..i was pissed..He made delong go out of the sch to get the card..and He never even pay him back the money..

after reading..i seriously have the urge to tear it away..but cos it was bought by delong..i didnt do so..

in the card..he said thank you and apologised to me..i felt nth at that moment..delong sensed something weird..yah..and i poured out everything to him..

after telling him the whole story..he was rather pissed..and he wanted to ask yap for a clearer pic..

he did..called me after my meeting..yap told him a lot of stuff..He has been attached for 2 and a half years..He felt so guilty for lying to me..BUT..why did YOU lie to me in the 1st place?..wat the f***!!

delong was so worried that i break down..but no..i wont..i have been telling myself that i got to be strong..

later..met eugene..xian and su to have dinner at sakae..had a very nice dinner..told them abt yap..eugene and xian said if i needed any help in dealing with yap..but i said forget it..even delong said i deserve a better guy..

after dinner..was already 10..su's parents came to fetch her..and as usual..3 of us walked hm together..

got hm..talked to hide till 11 plus..felt tired and fell aslp..

this morning..actually just went for a jog and came straight to blog..

while jogging..many things came running into my mind..it was all abt yap..many WHYs appeared in my mind..but do they matter now?..i doubt so..

yap just msed me again to thank me and He wanted me to thank the rest of the teachers on his behalf..i said no..He shld do it Himself..i dont want to be the one always helping Him..i'm sick of it..

k..shall stop here..in a rush already..tata..

updating..

2005-04-28T20:56:00.000-07:00

heya..

din get to blog yesterday..got hm pretty late..

yesterday morning..met shit to go to nus for the interview..was really fun..the interviewers were so comedy..all of us kept laughing..felt so relaxed then..

after that..went to northpoint to have lunch since she was going to look for jon and i needed to go back to sch..

bought lunch for don and ly..and i bought the new album of jolin for delong..know he was extremely happy..i noe he has been waiting for the release of the album..then..chatted with ly for awhile and left the sch with tze hui and delong..while i was going down the stairs from the staff room..saw yap..wanted to ignore Him..but he actually approached me and spoke to me..we crapped for awhile and i left..

on the way to the mrt station..left that delong wasnt very happy..well..shant assume anything..

went to town wtih tze hui to get a bdae present for tan fon..and i wanted to buy the personalised cd..

got a polo tee at far east for tan fon..then..we started to hunt for the cd..we walked all the way from far east to PS and we finally found the cd..i was so worried i couldnt find it..

den..met don at khatib..and ly at yishun..went to cwp to have dinner..was really fun..we started writing a story with all the song titles that i've given don to copy..the story is so comical..we couldnt stop laughing..den..went shopping..ly got to get some gifts for the kids..

later..we went to the arcade..guess wat..don bought a piglet for me..it is whereby we need to stuff the cotton wool into the body ourselves and got to choose a shirt for the piglet..we named it vicky..hee..don gonna give it to me on friday..

tat's for wednesday..

comes today..cleared my desk and had 4 big bags to carry hm..they were so heavy..so my mum waited for me at admiralty mrt station..we went to the bank 1st..asked them abt my mini card..so annoying..found out that they had yet to receive the application form..wat the..but the lady was nice..asked me to reapply and she would get them to send it to me asap..fine..

came hm..delong called me to chat..was rather upset after that when he told me something abt yap..he said that they were talking and yap mentioned abt His gf..He even showed delong the pic..and say that the girl is staying at his place..????????

i was so confused..everything is so ironic..msged ly..she asked me to crush out with Him tml..but..i doubt i'll do it..watever..

tml gonna be my last day in NbSs..gonna miss the kids man..been there for 3 mths..so somehow i've grown attached to the sch..or at least with the kids..

anyway..my brother is bAck!!

so happy man..missed him so so much..well..he got me two presents..they's the stress-reliever dolls..tat's wat i called them..they will start nodding their heads due to the solar light..so cute..thanks kor..

elder brother wants to borrow the car again..2nd bro isnt very willing to lend..but he sounded so fakingly pitiful..so 2nd bro agreed to lend..i wanted to be sacastic..but ended up i didit..just kept my mouth shut..but i did make some nasty comments..lala~

kk..shall stop here..gonna slp soon..kinda tired again..gonna be a long day tml..having pizza party in the staff lounge tml..and sakae buffet at night..i need to go for diet~..hee..next time den say lah..

to you..
-silent-

songs songs songs

2005-04-26T21:56:00.000-07:00

heya..

talking to su now..she's sending me some nice songs..

trying to look for 18 songs to copy into a cd..don's helping me to do that..yar..it's for Him..the last gift before i leave the sch..

this morning..was kinda pissed with some stuff..one of which was the class..idiot..shant elaborate much..just wanna say..if u really want to study..LISTEN~

as usual..the whole day was packed..in the afternoon when i was teaching hist..two sec1 girls came running frantically saying there was a girl who has locked herself in the toilet..and she wanted to talk to me..

found out that the girl was being bullied by the boys in her class..and she went to slap a boy..tried to calm her down..mr. elango came..counselled her..she was looking better..then i accompanied her to get her bag and made sure she went back home..

while on my way back to the staff room..met sab..she wanted me to acc her to get ice cream outside the sch..but i was bz then..sorry girl..

then..bogguss and her classmates came to look for me..they needed me to opne the cupboard for them..while preparing for the test papers..was talking to bogguss..

well..heard her side of the story..conclusion..i feel that they (if u noe who i'm talking abt)..shld really sit down and talk..this friendship means so much to each and everyone of you..dont break the bonds between you guys just because of a mediocre conflict..

went back to the staff room after conducting the test..someone missed call me..yap's no appeared on my hp screen..but i somehow felt it was delong who called..why one earth would yap call me..i was right then..delong was waiting for me..

packed my stuff and left with him..went to his hse to meet his mum..and to remember how to go his hse..gonna start giving him hm tuition next wk..he has a lot to catch up man..

poor girl isnt feeling well now..guess it must be abt sunder again..ger..u gonna be strong k..take care..

well..don wanted to have dinner with ly and i..but last minute..ly said she wanted to accompany her mum..so dinner cancelled..but guess we're going to have dinner together tml..anything..

gonna go to town with tze hui to get tan fon's present if the time allows..wanna go town to get something too..

k..shall stop here..

to you..
............

movie:guess who

2005-04-25T22:22:00.000-07:00

heya..

wanted to go to bed..but realised my elder bro has went out..who cares where he goes..so decided to come and blog before i sleep..

last night..wanted to slp early..but ended up i didnt..was talking to tze hui on the phone..crapping..den don called..was talking to him on the phone while he was heading home..he needed a pair of listening ears..

in morning..as usual..went to sch with sab..met Him in the middle of the road..He was walking the other way..heading to the atm machine..

got into the office to sign in as usual..the auntie was mopping the floor so it left a narrow path for ppl to walk..while i was abt to walk out..He came in..both of us were walking in the same path but in opposite directions..i was trying to walk towards my right..and He was going towards the left from His direction..both of us stucked there for awhile..i stopped..and let Him walked 1st..

i din dare to raise my head to see Him..just din have the courage to..sab was there to witness the whole scene..she was saying that why couldnt both of us just say a hi to each other..but well..too bad..

He was wearing the white shirt again..the one that i like..hmm..He was just so close to me at that moment..whatever..

lessons as usual..nth special..in the staff room..was acting as the middleman..both of them should really sit down and talk..but i'm sure it'll turn up well..

met up with sab earlier than planned cos her extra lesson was cancelled..

well..james was supposed to go with us..but we met someone and ended up james din dare to go with us..bish..

saw sunder..supposingly..i shld be having lunch with him today..but he din come and approach me..so i left with sab to catch a movie at j8..

we went to watch guess who..a nice..touching show..feel that the show is meant for sunder and poor girl..
hmm..while we were in the cinema..saw some strange incidents..find it kinda funny though..

after the show..when we were abt to take the train..Alex called..he's a ex-colleague of mine when i was working in the hotel..din expect him to call..but i din talk much to him anyway..felt that there wasnt a need to talk much?

got home..1st thing i did was to talk to shit..she gonna accompany to nus on wed..gdgd..talked to her for quite awhile..but we still have a lot more to catch up with on wed..

found out that my mum cut herself while sewing sone clothes..poor mummy..i cut myself this morning too..din realise it until i saw blood on my leg..and i felt a sharp pain..no worriesi'm fine..

hmm..cant wait for wed to come..my bro dearie is coming back from taiwan..hurray!..i miss him so much..at least when he's ard..i have someone to complain to abt my elder bro..he's in the same boat as me too..hee..

k..shall stop here..hide..i finish blogging already lah..hee..

to you..
we were less than an inch apart..

drenched

2005-04-24T16:02:00.000-07:00

heya..

it's a sunday afternoon..

feeling tired for the whole day..though i slept at 8pm last night..

wanted to take a short nap again but my mum insisted of me going to get the sweets then..fine..

bought 15 packets of sweets for my dearie students..hope they're enough..if not i'll go get more..

mum bought some household neccessities..she wanted to pay but i refused..i din want her to spent the money we've given her..at least when i'm there..want her to keep all the money that we've given her..

while on our way back..it rained..din bring umbrella..so we had to run across the road..mum tried calling hm to get my brother to bring the brolly down for us..but he wasnt at hm..almost quarrelled with him this morning..but i told myself to keep my mouth shut..got hm..saw the windows opened..couldnt he just close the windows before going out?..pissed..he jolly well not bring his gf hm today..

got drenched just now..well..i walked very slowly under the rain..havent gotten drenched for so long..i felt so refreshed..i dun deny that yap was on my mind..i'm longing for His sms..at least a sms before 29 april from Him?..i doubt so..

to you..
i know i should be letting go..
but can i whisper softly to you again..
saying..
i miss you..

APD

2005-04-23T19:42:00.000-07:00

heya..

din have the time to blog yesterday..got hm very late..

yesterday was kinda bz in sch cos everyone was preparing for APD..i was helping with two classes..had to run up and down..i was glad that the students were enthu abt it..so i din mind standing under the hot sun with them to set the booth up..

later..ly came to sch to fetch me..den accompanied her to the denist..and we to orchard..
while parking the car..ly was putting my life into jeopardy..hee..she was actually driving in the opposite lane..omg..and there was actually an oncoming car..luckily nth happened..

got the roses for ada and sab..was hoping that the roses would cheer them up ..knew they were very stressed up due to the APD..

den..met don and phang for dinner..we went to a japanese restaurant..the food was fine..don came late due to the preparation for APD..ly and i shared the glass of alcohol together..my face turned red again..but i was sober..hee..

don paid for the dinner..he wanted to treat me cos i'd helped his class to prepare the songs..

after that..we went to play pool at cineleisure..was so fun..all of us were laughing throughout all the games..all of us really enjoyed the games..

later..ly drove phang and i hm..don wanted to send me hm but was more convenient for ly to send me..

this time..ly put phang's life into jeopardy..he has not even got into the car completely and the door was not yet closed..ly has already started driving..was so scary man..

got hm ard 12am..was kinda tired..and fell aslp..

today is finally the APD cum food and craft fair..

well..was suppsed to meet sunder to go to sch together..but well..i ended up going with fann and hide..was rather pissed with him..hmm..find that he's becoming very irresponsible..he gives me an impression that he will only approach you when he needs your assistance..and i dun really like it..

anyway..morning was the APD..delong was wearing his no.1 uniform to receive his prize..he looked so smart..so proud of him too..wanted to take pic together..but he had duty so shall take another time then..

during th e principal's speech..she mentioned about yap as an example..and some students started looking at me..and i acted ignorant..

later on was the fair..tan fon drew a portrait of me..so sweet of him..it's really nice..tze hui dedicated 3 songs for me..bought me candy floss and took the trouble to bring it up to the hall to give it to me..thanks boy..delong got me a rose and the heart-shaped cusion..he;s always so nice..hmm..think i spent most of my money on food..hee..and don got me a teddy bear..thanks thanks..

then..sigmund came earlier..as usual..students started to think astray..i was sure yap saw him too..all the more better..later..joy came..and subsequently suling came too..well..they saw yap..three words..negative..negative..negative..and nth else..

joy and sig left earlier..later..called sandra to come over too..three of us could finally talked..*memorable*..she saw yap too..and she said.."ur taste has degraded tremenously"..well..i know..but i just cannot stop it from coming..

left suling and i after sending sandra hm..we were walking ard..den stayed outside the hall to talk..both of us were actually looking at yap..finally suling found a positive side of Him..and i was pretty touched too..He actually carried a little girl onto the bench and was playing with her..the scene was so lovely..and he held the little girl's hand..*sweet*..i simply cannot forget..

went hm with suling..before leaving the sch..we could sense that poor girl wasnt really in good mood..most probably because of sunder..hope she's feeling better..take care girl..

hmm..feeling kinda tired already..has been a long day..sall stop here then..

to you..
i shall remain silent once again.

short hair..

2005-04-21T17:52:00.000-07:00

heya..

left the sch slightly early at ard 3.30pm..

was having cramps so i din wanna stay in sch any longer..and i'm scared to sit at my place..

as usual..went to sch with sab..hmm..she told me not to give up on Him..but i said no..i will let Him go..i choose to do it this way..y?..simple..y hold on to the kite when it is already attached to another?..afterall..i deserve a better kite..isnt it?

this morning..phang came over my seat to talk to me regarding APD..when he was abt to go..he knocked onto the desk..and the whole desk toppled..i got a shock of my life..so were the teachers in the staff room..
i screamed when the desk fell..my whole face turned red..blood was gushing up..i could feel it..my tears was abt to roll down too..
shir nee kept asking me to drink water to calm myself down..the rest were checking if i was fine..yup..i was fine..just shocked..
the male teachers helped to pick up all the books..very sweet of them..
guess the screw went loose..and there were too many things on it..so the whole table just toppled..

later..sat at don's place to do my stuff..din dare to sit by myself..

at that time..i really wished He was there to calm me..but i knew it would never ever happen..well..was just a thought..

hmm..don asked me to go for supper tonite..well..his ultimate aim is to ask ly along..and he even agreed to drive me hm..but ly will be driving tonite as well..wat a pity..and i dun wanna be lightbulb..guess the supper will be called off..

tml night..the nie teachers and i will be having dinner most probably in town..and maybe a drink or pool..and ly promised to drive me home..hee..gdgd..

wanted to wait for sab but i was kinda tired and the cramps was making me very uncomfortable..so i left by myself..

went for a hair cut before going home..all along i wanted to cut.couldnt stand my dried hair anymore..

got hm..mum was saying that my hair is very short..well..she doesnt like me to have short hair..so no matter so little i trim..she will still say it's short..

not really tat short actually..only tat when i tie..most of it will fall down..dun intend to tie anyway..

yup..tat's all for today..tata..

empty bottle..fill it or dump it..
i choose to dump it..

to you..
i shall remain silent..

tiring..

2005-04-20T18:36:00.000-07:00

losing my cool..

hmm..just finished typing two more chinese albums..guess there shldnt be any more..gdgd..

well..nth much happened..if there were things happening..i couldnt be bothered as well..wasnt in gd mood the whole day..don was trying to cheer me up..but it was futile..watever..

left sch at ard 5..with sab..hide and others..before that..met sunder and yap..dun bother..

nth to blog..dun feel like blogging..shall stop here then..

to you..
i am losing faith in you..

leave me alone..

2005-04-19T20:12:00.000-07:00

i just wanna to be alone..

got hm not long..took a bath..and cant wait to blog..just wanna voice everything out here..

as usual..was bz throughout the day..bz preparing for APD..marked test papers..another class test papers to come tml..anything..

was waiting for sab..supposed to catch a movie in town..and we ended up going cwp to have dinner instead cos the rehearsal ended late..

sat in mos burger..and sab told me something abt Him..

she was answering me the question that i have for Him in the previous blog..

during the rehearsal..He was telling sab He wanted to rush hm to accompany a girl..when i heard that..my mind was blank..completely blank..

i am devastated..at that moment..i was on the verge of crying..but i told myself that i'd to calm down..

sab was trying to convince me that it might not be true..but..i choose to believe everything that He said..and if He lied..then let it be..

throughout the whole dinner..He was spinning around in my mind..WHY?..WHY?..WHY?

and not only sab noes abt it..that freaking bloody 'lucy' was the first one to noe..and she spread it to another teacher..and that was how i learnt about it..of all ppl..wat the f***..

y all the initiative that u've taken when you already have someone else?..wat's with the phone calls and the smses?..is that fair to me?..i demand an answer from you..

well..sab was vexed up with some stuff too..but i'm sure they'll be fine as time goes by..and give everyone some time to cool down..

my way home on the bus..msged hide and su..both asked me to ask Him to find out the truth..sorry..i cant pluck up the courage to do so..din reply later cos i could sense that tears was going to roll down..i just wanted to be left alone..

got hm..while i was bathing..my eyes turned red..couldnt endure anymore..enough is enough..

i just feel like screaming..

to you..
i'm mad..
i'm devastated..
i'm totally drained..
i'm desperate for the truth from you..

is it true?

2005-04-18T19:06:00.000-07:00

got hm..had dinner..

din have the time to blog when i was in sch..really hectic today..

had a lot of work to do today..got to copy the album to my laptop..type all the titles..mark test papers..and all are yet to be completed..

someone told me stuff abt Him..heard abt something..i really hope it is not true..i really hope so..well..maybe if it's true..i should let go..do i have a choice then?..no..

msged Him when i was in sch to ask if He wanna go hm together..He din reply..we saw each other soon after i msged Him..had eye contact..but so?..watever..walked out of sch with sab in the end..gonna catch a movie with her tml..

just received His msg..He apologised for not replying..He forgot to reply?..watever..

gonna keep myself occupied by typing the chinese song titles..hoping i will not think so much..will i?

to you..
i really want to know the truth..
but i know i dont have the gut to ask..
can you tell me it is not true?
please?

=mediocre=

2005-04-17T21:52:00.000-07:00

sigh

to you..

i just want to say..

everything is so mediocre..

finally finish typing..

2005-04-17T14:32:00.000-07:00

sunday afternoon..

i've just finished typing all the chinese song titles..su..thanks for ur "GREAT" help..u know wat i mean..finished marking test papers last nite..finally..got most things done for the wkends..tml will have more stuff to be done..

hmm..He msged me last night..and He called me too..His initative is coming back..good or bad?..i dunnoe..well..at least for now it's gd..He even msged me before He went to slp..

shall stay at home for today..nowhere to go anywhere..shall stay at hm and slack..nth much to update today..shall stop here then..

just went to check my hp..He msged me at 1pm..oops..i din now until now..just called Him..He's bz now i guess..so din talk much..

to you..
give me some time..

jazz dance..

2005-04-16T19:58:00.000-07:00

got hm at ard 7..

went for my jazz dance in the morning at bugis with su..

was really enjoying and i told myself to concentrate on the steps..and not get distracted by other stuff..

later..had lunch..and we went shopping since we were already at bugis..

hmm..got my eyebrowns trimmed..had french manicure..bought one baby poster..10 motivational postcards..a top from DCP and two watches..

su wanted to stop me from buying and buying but she knows i'm feeling troubled..so she din stop me..

in the train..msged Him..poor girl asked me to do so..at 1st..i tot it was useless to msg Him..as if He would know how i am feeling..but she said that i should msg Him and whether He understand or not is another matter..quite true though..

He replied when i was waiting for bus..well..msged a few times and i stopped..felt meaningless to continue..and i did not know how to continue..

got hm..elder brother is with his gf..again..watever..over the dinner table..mum was trying to piss me..i raised my voice a little..telling her not to piss me..or the one in the room would get a hell out of me..she din dare to talk much..cos she knows i jolly well will embarrasse him right infront of his gf..

well..shall keep myself occupied tonight by marking the test papers..one more class to go..and i still have the song titles to type..

anyway..gonna catch a movie with sab on wed..gonna chill..hey ger..movie's my treat k..

to you..
i am stuck with words..
i do not know how to express myself..

y isnt my phone ringing?

2005-04-15T22:32:00.000-07:00

back..

was typing the titles for the past 3 hrs..just dun have the mood to carry on..

y isnt my phone ringing..tat's my msn nick now..

am i expecting his call?

is his call so important to me?

maybe?..perphaps?

i'm in a dilemma..

i'm confused..

how i long crying out will enable me to sort out my mind..

but i know it wont..

i dont want to repeat the history..

what am i thinking?

what am i doing?

what do i really want?

do i really need Him to be by my side?

is He the answer to my questions?

i need some breather..

-tears-

dilemma..

2005-04-15T19:36:00.000-07:00

argh~

just feel like screaming..my mood is swinging very fast now..

well..it's an extremely packed day..only had two breaks between lessons..

now i got to help 2 classes with their APD..which means more work..i have so many things to do..i got over 20 albums today..and i got to type the titles out..almost half are chinese..gd luck man..

after typing the titles..i still have two classes of hist teest papers to mark..if i dun finish marking by this wkends..i would have another two more classes to mark..maybe this will keep me preoccupied and not think too much..

guess next wk will be quite hectic cos everyone will be bz preparing for the APD..gonna stay back in sch till very late i predict..

after sch..had to discuss with the class regarding APD..later..gave delong maths revision..until 5..and i continued typing the song titles till 5.30..

He had a meeting outside..so couldnt go hm together..it's alright..maybe i just need some time to be alone..to sort out my thoughts..

there were times when He walked past me..but i chose to avoid eye contact..

then..left the sch..took the bus with delong..he was actually waitng for me..din talk much..din feel like talking..

got hm..mum nvr cook..asked me to buy dinner hm..fine..tot she would accompany me..but nvr..nvm then..

going to have my 1st lesson of jazz dance tml..hope it will cheer me up..

to you..
there are times when i long for you to contact me..
but there are times when i just want to be left alone..
i am sorry..
but i am in a dilemma..

yap yap..

2005-04-14T20:12:00.000-07:00

back again..

well..told Him abt the registration thingy..eh..din really tell Him the whole story..and since He nvr asked..i shouldnt elaborate too much too..

throughout the whole conversation.we were crapping..joking..and he was asking if any class gave me any problem today..just out of concern i guess..hee..

everything's going very smoothly..waiting for his call cos he has gone out..

hmm..thinking of having a lunch or something with Him..but..i noe i wont dare to ask..let it be..

talking to hide now..keep forcing me to have lunch with Him..haa..shall stop here..tata..

to you..
i am waiting your call..

sigh

2005-04-14T17:42:00.000-07:00

heya

got home not long..

after sch..taught delong maths..and left sch at ard 2..

went to the gym for some workouts since i din go yesterday..

at the beginning..din have a peaceful mind to exercise..cos got to help Him to call the sch..but i din have the number..called sunder..said he left the number at home..tried calling afew ppl and finally kolay was able to go online and get it for me..thanks girl..

at first..i thought the whole registration would be smooth-sailing..but..no..it did not..

the registration date has closed very long ago..so when i actually registered for Him this morning..He's on the waiting list..

asked the administrator how high is the chance to get into the course and he said it's very slim..i was like..

i really dunnoe how to tell Him..told Him i'll call Him later..i noe He really doesnt want to serve ns now..i dun want to make Him feel disappointed..

called hide after my workouts..i was in dilemma..asked her i wat i shld do and she said i should tell Him the truth..it's difficult..

but no matter what..i got to tell Him..i really pray hard that He can get the course..

to you..
i am sorry that i cant help much..
although i really want to..

although he's not here..

2005-04-14T11:42:00.000-07:00

heya..

still have ard 10 more mins before my next lesson..so shall come and blog..

hey gers..thanks for leaving msges in my blog..everything's fine..moving on the right track..hee..

well..he nvr come to sch today..but i knew last night..unlike the past..i got to find out by myself..this time..he told me himself..hee..

was talking to Him last night for 2 whole hours..2 hours leh~..it has been so long since we chatted on the phone..and He was the one who initiated it..the whole conversation was so enjoying..kept laughing..hee..

was kinda late then and he insisted me of going to sleep..yup..did as he said..but after we hung the phone..we started smsing for awhile..=p

in the morning..while i was msging hide ( u know who u r) regarding the APD tixs..he msged me to see if i were on my way to sch already not..kinda shocked actually..hee..dun expect Him to wake up so early..

He has not register with the sch yet..gonna make him do so by today..

yup..tat's all for now..tata..

to you..
i miss you..

talking to sig..

2005-04-13T21:42:00.000-07:00

yup..

back again..

talking to sig now..have been talking to him for hours..he's slacking in the bunk now..got punished and the whole platoon cannot book out for the day..

he wants to go for the APD..his main aim is to see yap..haa..wanna see how 'good' he is..lame..

asked me out on sat..see 1st lah..just feel like staying at home..hee..

well..got a tuition kid..so happy..trying to find more tuition kids since i'm gonna stop reliefing soon..

hmm..was trying to get more info abt the sign on thingy..asked xian and bang abt it..xian felt that it's better to study 1st before going abt to sign on to ns..cos if he is to sign on now..the pay that he will be getting is going to be mediocre..

gonna tell Him about it..but ultimately..He's the one making the decision..He has to learn to decide for Himself..for His future..

called sunder just now to check where the stuff has gone to..he tot i am still pissed with me so he dared not call me..hmm..he said they were very nice..poor girl's effort has not gone to waste..good good..

to you..
goodnight..
take care..

omg..can you believe it?

2005-04-13T17:06:00.000-07:00

heya..

just got home not long..and i simply cannot wait to blog..wat a day man..i simply cannot believe it..

shall start from the beginning..

in the morning..know yap was in sch cos He came into the staff room to put for stuff for the teacher..so it was a good start..

after my four periods..returned to the staff room..well..He was there too..guess what..He approached me and talked to me again..wow~

we were joking with each other..really fun..and He kept disturbing me with my piglets..so sweet..hee..

had lunch with the nie teachers..well..tot of having lunch with Him..but din noe how to..so forget abt it..

later..don wanted me to accompany with for lunch..too late..but he made me go down to the canteen with me..fine..since i had nth much to do..he treated me to a drink..and you know wat..He was in the canteen eating alone..so poor thing..

then don kept asking me to go accompany Him..but i was kinda shy..hee..went back to the staff room and msged Him..and we started msging each other..den he asked me what time i was going hm..i really turned mad after that..kept beating don and asked him wat He was trying to mean..i mean..duh..i knew wat He was trying to mean.but i just need someone to agree with me..hee

i said it depended on my mood..so i asked if he wanted to go hm with me..and he said:"ok lor"..argh~..i was really on cloud nine man..and i kept smiling till don couldnt take it..hee..

actually..was suppose to go to the gym..brought all my clothes with me in the morning..but..i chose to go home..hee..if you were me..i'm sure you would too..=)

later..one of the nie teachers was asking for my help..asked me to help her with her laptop cos it was an observation lesson..okie..

pity her..there were so many problems..the screen being projected was green..ada called yap using my hp to ask him to assist her..meanwhile i rushed down to get a new plug for her..

returned to the class..the previous plug was stucked in the socket..wat the..got to call yap again..He came..and i left the class..left Him to settle it..

then..i saw delong..finally..was waiting for him..revised his maths again..it was already 3+..and was supposed to meet Him at 3 to go home..

He called to ask where i was..i finished the revision with delong and hurried down..saw sunder at the concourse..rushed back to the staff room to get the thing for him..

He waited for me at the void deck..and we went hm together..

we really talked a lot during the journey..was discussing abt wat He shld study..whether to sign on or not..He knew i dun want Him to join police..so He did it on purpose to say He wanna join police..but i know He wont..most probably would be navy..

hmm..havent had such a LONG talk with Him face to face..no words can describe how i feel man..just cant stop smiling..

well..just help Him to look for more info on navy since He's too lazy to find it by Himself..

hmm..He just msged me again..hee..asking wat i'm doing..told Him that i am blogging..a hint to Him anyway..to tell Him that i have a blog..hee..so HaPpy~~

to you..
i am so so so happy..
you have actually waited for me..
no words can describe my feelings for you..

eat eat eat..

2005-04-12T19:46:00.000-07:00

*burp*

hee..just finished eating dinner..had spagetti..wanted to eat three plates..but my mum stopped me..saying that if i eat another plate..i'll feel bloated..cos i always eat so much at night..so i only ate two plates..yum yum..

hmm..dunnoe y (yar rite)..but i am simply having a good appetite..hee..munch munch munch..buahaahaa..=0

den..had one muffin that sab has baked..tried the chocolate one..really nice..had it with my mum..thanks girl..u really can bake..

took the train with one of the nie teachers..guess she must be vexed out..and pissed with the teachers..and she cried..so poor thing..

felt that the teachers shldnt grade them so poorly..afterall..it's gonna be their rice bowl later on..they must be seeking revenge..tat's wat i told the nie teachers..hee..hope i wont face the same situation in future..

to you..
you showed the the light of hope..
do not turn it to fake hope..false hope..
still waiting..
miss you..

peace..

2005-04-12T17:52:00.000-07:00

my workshop has finally finished..phew..

well..something made me feel better..He came today..afternoon shift i guess..

met yap in the office when i was rushing for the workshop..there was a change of room again and i asked yap to ask the class to go to the right room..thanks yap..

during the break..din notice He was just sitting opposite me until He talked to me..He TALKED to me..He took the initative to do so..dunnoe how to describe how i feel..but yar..happy..hee..

yup..shall go hm already..gonna be dinner time by the time i reached hm..tata..

to you..
i am on cloud nine..
are you opening up to me?
but no matter what..
thank you for your initative..

i am PISSED..

2005-04-12T13:22:00.000-07:00

i am PISSED..argh~~~

i thought i could go out of sch to have lunch before going for the workshop..but now..forget it..

sunder called and said he has something on AGAIN..felt so pissed and i just hang the call..i mean..wat the..i skipped all my breaks so as to have lunch with him but now?..feel so..argh~

y am i feeling so moody today?..is it because He's not here today?..watever..PISSED..

not in sch again?

2005-04-12T11:02:00.000-07:00

heya..

finally there's some break for me to blog..supposed to be a slack day for me..but many teachers are absent today..so got to relief their classes..

slept at 9 last nite..early?..was kinda tired..monday is always like this..den sunder called at 12.30AM..my goodness..talked for half an hour..and i went back to slp..

this morning..sab gave me some muffins baked by herself..i'm sure they taste nice..thanks girl..=p

delong gave me sylvester's album..well..din expect him to really burn one copy for me..thanks anyway..den..another student lend me the original copy..must return one lah..so sweet of them..

yup..so now i'm listening to it..not too bad..a pity that i cant on too loud..it might to noise pollution for some ppl i guess..hee..

well..my students were asking why i looked so moody..hmm..maybe because He's not here today?..nvr see Him..am i really missing Him?..who can give me the answer?

gonna have lunch with sunder..if he nvr break his promise..if he does..i'm going to sream at him..hee..

yup..tat's all for now..

to you..
where are you?
i am missing you..
so so much..

back again..

2005-04-11T19:06:00.000-07:00

i'm back again..

just finished helping delong with his maths..gonna start from scratch..really hope he does well..he's one who will study but just that he has short attention span..

volunteered to assist with his class's APD..gonna type out the song list for them..100 CDs..all the best to me..hee..=p

waiting for delong..that yap asked him to do something first before going hm..bleah..fine..

*continued*

wasnt able to finish blogging when i was in sch cause delong and yap came into the staff room..wasnt very nice if they see it..

yup..get to see him again..had eye contact this time but we didnt talk..wasnt the right time i felt..too many ppl..

after that..while i was going down..met sunder..he came back today with a group of friends..talked for awhile and i left..told him to come again tml..but well..it depends his mood..

took train with delong..was drizzling but the wind was so strong..shared my umbrella with one of the students while delong walked under the rain..the student's and my skirt almost flew up and guess wat..my umbrella broke..one more pink umbrella gone..

went to cwp to buy old chang kee for myself and mum..got hm..took a rest..and been online for the past 3 hrs..i was typing the song titles which are all in chinese..omg~..just realised my chinese sucks..had a long time figuring the han yu pin yin although i have my dictionary with me..

don is feeling kinda grateful for helping his class..kept thanking me..well..just wanna contribute a little to the sch before i leave..

yup..gtg..dinner time..tata..

to poor girl: you looked tired today..felt that you shld take a break but the teachers dont seem to be letting you go..giving you task one after another..but no matter wat..you must take some breather..take care yah?

to you..
a glance is good enough..
but can i be more greedy?

monday..

2005-04-11T13:32:00.000-07:00

heya..

yup..still in school waiting for the time to pass..

well..have expected many students to drop by my blog..and expected them to have inferred who this blog is for..watever..hope you guys will sHhHhhh abt it..a favour i ask from you guys?

y do i think that they know it?..simple..went to a class in the morning..and the topic that they have raised made it so obvious..

tot of changing my blog address..to make it low profile..but if i do so..He wouldnt be able to find out..and i doubt He knows abt the existence of this blog anyway..

to you..
i saw you this morning..
so did you..
i know you were helping me again..
i just know it..

to you..

2005-04-10T18:02:00.000-07:00

to you..

i just have the sudden urge to leave a blog specially for you..

19 more days and i will be leaving the place..

will there be a new story between us?

i really hope so..

what if there isnt?

i will not give up still..

i will wait..

wait till the day you realise..

realise that i am still hanging on..

though i am putting a strong front when i see you..

awaiting for your response..

friends have been reprimanding me..

to ask me to let go..

to ask me not to waste my time..

but no..

i want to hear from you before i make any decision..

say that i am stubborn..

i will wait..

no matter what..

give me the chance to wait for you..

will you?

i miss you badly..

back from gym..

2005-04-10T17:48:00.000-07:00

heya..

back from gym..

woke up this morning..saw my elder brother and his gf..sian..cant be bothered with them..better not disturb me or nth good will come out from my mouth..so my brother knows it..so he din disturb me..gdgd..all the more better..

was watching tv until i dozed off..hee..lack of sleep..

then..met gene at admiralty mrt station at 12.45 to get my jay chou's pic which i've forgotten to take last nite..thanks gene..

went to cwp to meet su and we went to the gym at amore fitness centre..the facilities are really great..jogged for 45 mins and did some arm training..havent been exercising since i was ill the other time..so shall get my stamina back slowly..should be going on wed again if there's nth on in the afternoon in sch..

had a bite at ya kun..went to popular after that cos su wanted to get some stuff for work tml..i bought a cute exercise bk..i intend to give it to delong..to encourage him to study..gonna start giving him extra lesson from tml..hope it works for him..jia you wor..

on my way back..msged poor girl to see if she's alright..but she has yet to reply..maybe the hp is with her mum..

i was listening to music too..and suddenly i tot of yap again..whenever i passed admiralty..i would hope that i'll see him..but it always failed..well..however i will nvr give up..never..wonder what he's doing now..does he know that i miss him?..somebody tell him pls..

hmm..poor girl just replied me..saying that her fever is on and off..take care my dear girl..

changed my msn nick to: [hui] - .:: guys = predators __ girls = preys ::.
y?..just feel that girls are always the victims..or at least most of the time..we've done wat we can do but wat do we get ultimately?..false hopes?..fake hopes?..worse till..nth at all..but we dun give up..we will still hang on..y the determination?..the reason is very simple..because we are in love..so in love with them..

to you..
the next blog is specially for you..

talking to sunder..

2005-04-10T02:16:00.000-07:00

heya..

just finished talking on the phone with sunder..he called me when i was bathing..got hm ard 1am..the same old group of guys sent me hm..they will nvr abandon me..hee..

was supposed to go to tampines as planned earlier..but we ended up going to town..cos kel wanted to join us in the end and he said he wanna go town cos tampines is too far..so we changed the venue since everyone was fine with it..

reached there..bought the tickets for the pacifier..had lunch at yoshi before that..den went shopping for awhile..

the show was comical and touching..worth watching..almost cried at some of the scenes..

den..had dinner at ajisen..then kel wanted to play pool so we went back to cwp to play..it was 11pm and the pool centre was fully booked..waited for ard 15mins before we got a table..den su left early cos calls from home were coming..we played till 12.30pm..was kinda sleepy by then and the centre was closing anyway..

kel took cab home..and the four of us..as usual..walked hm..they sent me hm 1st as usual..

as mentioned..was talking to sunder..he just wanted to chat with me cos he havent been talking..actually while i was playing pool..i msged him cos the poor girl msged me to say that she's running a fever..felt that a msg from sunder would make her feel better..but the guy didnt msg her..argh..

promise me to come back to sch on tuesday..to settle his admin stuff and to speak to mrs chew..he better not break his promise..told him to go and meet her but he refused..and wanting me to return the cd for him..i din agree..felt that they shld meet..but well..will he?..i really dunnoe..

asked him very seriously if he missed her..he said ya..it's so obviously..the other day when he came to sch..and he saw her going towards the concourse..his eyes nvr leave the sight of her..isnt it obvious?..told him that i am not always there to help him sort out his mind..he got to be on his own..but he kept changing topic and dragging yap into the topic..watever..shall try to speak to him on tue again..if he ever come..

to poor girl: do take care of your health..try not to think so much..one day he will realise that you've always been by his side..cheer up..=)

to you..
have you seen my blog?
i doubt so..
but it's okay..
i know one day you will..
i will wait..
take care yah..
goodnight..

wat the..

2005-04-09T12:36:00.000-07:00

back again..

lame is all i can say..

after i finished blogging..i went to see the poor girl's blog..she mentioned abt the prank too..and i realised that it was sent by another girl (A)..and that sunder had told A that he's seeing a girl from northland..so A told poor girl..

pissed as i was feeling..i msged A why she did tat and she told me it was sunder who asked her to do so..argh~..den..poor girl said she saw sunder when her dad drove out..*faint*..i tried my luck to call sunder..his hp is finally thru..

screamed at him on the phone..questioned him for wat he had said to A..and guess wat..he was joking..wat the..scolded him for it and asked him to msg poor girl..but i doubt he will do so..as yet..and he on his way to catch a movie at cwp with his friend..

told poor girl all abt it..guess she's extremely upset and wanting to be left alone for now..haiz..hope she'll be fine..

just nice..yap msged to ask y i needed to contact sunder..told him everything was fine already..he din ask much..he wont anyway..

yup..tat's all for now..in a rush actually..tata..

to you..
thanks for your reply..

Pr|nc3ss m0nk3y's diAry

1 down..2 to go..

movie marathon

i'm back

one presentation done

shopping spree~

to my one and only mr evil..

hall 13 production

piglet shirt~

jcrc sub comm dinner..

mr evil..ms angel..baby angel..but where's my baby evil?

home stay in blk 711..

hall 7 production

hectic..

so comical..

taking into consideration..

honeymoon period?

hAppy One MonTh~!!

ups and downs..

room alone

1st formal sch day..

*scream*

your 1st time?..yar rite..

chill up..

red candy sucks..

break camp~

you're lost in my eyes?

confidence level = zero

thanks peeps..

i beg you..

fuck off man..

brain dead

bugis..

wedding dinner..

mia..i'm back..

P.I.S.S.E.D

baby..i love you..i still do..

missing earing..

personality test~

shopping~!!

rotted for 5 days..

wk is changing..hee..

bad feeling..

another gathering..

another early morning..

tired..

wake me up so early..

waiting for shit..

sentosa with him..(*my 1st time*)

.............

appearing again?

thanks man!..so much better now..=)

let it go?

he msged me..

techno..

i HAVE to move on..no matter wat..

mum's home..

su's hse..

mum's overseas..

tattoo..

tanning..

status = single

devastated..

updating of the past 5 days..

boring..

mango bikini..

squad gathering..

tired..

a place in ntu..

last day..

updating..

songs songs songs

movie:guess who

drenched

APD

short hair..

tiring..

leave me alone..

is it true?

=mediocre=

scream

sentosa with him..(my 1st time)